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Regulus

James and I have been caught by one person.
Granted that person is Remus so nothing will probably come of it, but when it happened my heart dropped to my stomach and I had to get out of there.
James has reassured me that Remus won't say anything, but I can't help but feel rather on edge around anyone just incase someone else saw or overheard James and Remus talking.
I really need to calm down about it, people are going to find out eventually, James and I can't stay a secret forever but now is not the time. I'm not ready for that.
I don't think James is either.
I think James is more scared of telling Sirius than I am, and to be honest, I feel like Sirius would give him more of a hard time than he would me. Sirius has always been protective over me, he'd never admit it, but he always has been. He won't have anyone be mean to me, regardless of how horrible I have been to him. I will never admit it, but I am grateful for him and his protection.
Anyway, Sirius doesn't know so right now that doesn't matter. Right now I need to focus because I'm currently in a Magical Creatures lesson and we've been talking about RedKapps and HinkyPunks for about 25 minutes and I couldn't tell you a single thing about them.
"Mr Black, could you tell me the distinct features of a RedKapp?" Asks our professor.
I start.
I have not been paying attention. I stare at him, mouth agape, scraping for an answer, anything, but no words come out. Now I just look like an idiot.
"Looks like someone needs to be paying attention. I expect better, Mr Black"
I hear some "ooohs" from people and a couple of chuckles but I brush them off, I wasn't too fussed.
The rest of the lesson dragged on and finally we were set free.
As we leave the classroom, Barty and Evan fall into step with me on either side of me and Barty strings his arm over my shoulder. Evan did not seem to happy with that. I don't know what his deal is sometimes.
"So, Reggie, what's been on your noggin?" Asks Barty
"Why?" I ask
"You're usually not half bad at Magical Creatures and today you were abysmal"
"I just wasn't interested in the topic" I lie
"So you weren't thinking about anything else?" Asks Barty
"Don't be stupid, Barty, he doesn't think" replies Evan
"Hey! I do too! I'm just tired is all" I say defensively
"Oh I bet you are, you didn't get back till almost four in the morning" Barty says with a smirk on his face
"Will you get your arm off me" I say, removing his arm. Evan seems to relax at this. His shoulders seem to relax and his jaw unclenches. Surely he wasn't...jealous? No. Surely not.
"That's avoidant of you" Evan states
"You're not helping" I reply
"Helping what?" Asks Barty
"You guys are trying to get some sort of confession out of me but I have nothing to confess to" I reply
"If you say so" says Evan
"I do say so" I reply
We carry on walking together. They end up walking me to Transfiguration, they have a double free the lucky bastards. I say my goodbyes to my friends and go to class. I don't think they're going to let go of my late nights out. I will tell them one day, just not today.
After transfiguration I'm supposed to have Ancient Runes but our professor is ill so I'm left with a free.
I head back to the Slytherin Common Room. I was going to go back to my dorm and grab some study stuff before heading to the library, but I might take a nap instead, I am pretty exhausted and I now have a double free so a quick power nap is looking good right now.
I head to my dorm, not stopping off in the common room because I couldn't see Evan and Barty there otherwise I would have sat and had a chat with them for a bit. I guess they must have gone into Hogsmeade or something.
I open the door of my dorm, expecting it to be empty.
However, when I open the door, I do not expect to see Barty shirtless straddling Evan, also shirtless and both of them making out.
That was not on my list of expectations for the day, but it is in fact what I saw.
I'm not sure if they heard me come in but for a moment I panic. What do I do? Do I leave and pretend I never saw? Do I want and see if they notice me?
I turn to leave silently "Shit" I hear Barty say. He's evidently seen me. "Sorry I was just leaving" I say defensively
"Who the fuck doesn't knock?" Asks Evan angrily
"I didn't expect you two to be getting it on!"
I exclaim
"Just go!" Barty exclaims.
I nod my head and quickly move out of the room, shutting the door behind me.
Looks like my nap is completely out of the question. I decide to take a walk around school grounds instead.
It's relaxing to take time to myself, I don't know why I don't do it more often. It's nice to take a moment to breathe, to appreciate everything, to decompress.
I remember I left my book in my bag so I decide to sit near the black lake and read for a while.
"Wotcher, Regulus"
I whip my head around to see who's greeting me. Unfortunately it's Severus Snape.
"What?" I ask
"So hostile" Snape replies with a smirk
"Cut to the chase, Snape, what is it you want?" I ask
"Just thought I'd drop in and say hi"
"Why? We're not friends, you're not even in my year"
"You wound me, Regulus, what makes you think I'm not your friend?"
"Because you're an ass" I deadpan
"Don't tell me you're trying to be a good brother all of a sudden?"
"How about you leave while you're ahead, Snape"
"I wouldn't be too mean if I were you"
"Are you threatening me?"
"That depends"
"What do you want?"
"To be your friend"
"No"
"Wouldn't it be a shame if people knew about you and James Potter"
My heart catches in my throat snd I suddenly feel sick
"What about me and Potter?" I ask
"Don't act stupid, Regulus, it doesn't suit you"
"Why thank you"
"I saw you two the other night in the great hall when you thought everyone had gone, you were practically inhaling him. I didn't know you swung that way, Black, but I must say, if you could improve your taste I would hold you higher in my regards"
"Funnily enough I don't pick my men based on how you think of me"
"Oh dear whatever shall I do?"
"Merlin, Severus, your sarcasm is painfully bad please just tell me what you want? I don't see what you could possibly gain from outing me"
"It's not outing you that would get me what I want, you are the one who can help me, I just need a threat to give you that extra push, if you will"
"How could I possibly help you?"
"I want you to help me get Lily Evans, now I know Potter is out of the running I think I have a better chance"
It takes everything I have in my not to cackle in his face there and then. Who does he think he is? Has he seen Lily? Even I can appreciate a gorgeous woman, and that's exactly what Lily is and Severus...well, Severus has a face only a mother can love and I mean that somewhat respectfully.
"You are aware that Lily is not a prize to be won yes? You and James aren't fighting for her, it's not between either of you. Has it ever crossed your mind that maybe Lily is into someone else or maybe Lily is into girls?"
"Please Regulus just because you're gay doesn't mean everyone else has to be"
"I just mean have you thought about what she wants?"
"I'm not here to have you therapize me, Regulus, I want you to help me with Lily"
"Why on Earth have you come to me?"
"I thought since you were with James you'd know Lily better"
"You are 100% wrong I've barely ever spoken to Lily, I'm sure she's lovely but even if I wanted to I can't help you with that"
"You could get to know her"
"Or you could fucking grow a pair and get to know her yourself"
"Well if you can't help me then your secret is no use to me anymore"
"Surely you won't just out me anyway? Think of how that will impact your relationship with Lily"
Severus stops for a moment and seems to ponder my statement, as though he hadn't thought about how outing Lily could impact the way she sees and interacts with him. Of course he hasn't, he only thinks of himself. Christ this boy is insufferable.
"What do you mean?" Severus finally asks. This is genuinely painful for me, how can someone be so unaware of other people?
"If you out me and James then she will see you as a selfish, hatred person and that doesn't sound like the sort of person Lily wants to be around"
"That is true. However, I also have a vendetta against James Potter so it can't really be that bad"
"That is a low blow, especially for you, and it's not just James' life you're going to make difficult. What about me?"
I am scraping for reasons not to out me now. Surely he wouldn't actually do it? Would he? I mean I know he's a dick, but I didn't think he was this much of a dick.
"Well, I hate your brother and you're not my favorite person"
"What happened to wanting to be friends not all of five minutes ago?"
"Yeah that was when I thought you could do something for me but now you're pretty useless so I have no real care for you"
My heart is pounding in my chest. I feel sick.
"Severus, please"
"Begging now? That's interesting"
"Severus, you can't do this"
My mouth is going dry, I genuinely fear that he will do this. I'm not ready. This isn't how I wanted people to know.
"Oh but I can"
I watch Severus and immediately I know I have to tell James. I have to at least prepare him for what I am sure is inevitable.
I all but run to Gryffindor Tower, hoping and praying that James is there.
On the way to Gryffindor tower I bump into someone.
Not just someone.
James.
Thank Merlin.
"James"
"Reg, what's up?"
"I need to talk to you"
"Can it wait? I have transfiguration in like 15"
"No, James, it cannot wait, please, you need to listen to me"
I am frantic. I don't know why I'm reacting this bad. I was going to tell people. Just not now. Not like this. Maybe my reaction is warranted but I know it's causing James to worry so I pull him into a nearby broom closet. It's better to rip the plaster off now and let him know than pussyfoot around it.
"Regulus, take a deep breath, it's okay"
"No, James, it's not okay. Severus knows about us, he caught us in the great hall the same day Remus did. He knows and he's going to tell people"
"How do you know he's telling people?"
"He told me he would. He asked me to help him get with Lily but when he realized I barely knew Lily and wouldn't be helpful he said our secret is no use to him anymore so he might as well tell people because he hates you and Sirius"
James' expression goes grave and his face all but turns white. I knew my reaction was warranted.
"Okay. I'll- I'll deal with it"
"How?"
"I'm late"
James walks away, semi disorientated with this recent discovery. I really hope he can deal with it because I have no idea what to do.

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I know it's been a hot minute but I have returned. I heard the spice girls say spice up your life and I took that quite literally with this chapter. As Pam from Gavin and Stacey would say, it's all the drama! I just love it! Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this one!

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