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Regulus

I am so angry.
I walk away from James before I say something I'm bound to regret later, something I don't mean.
Of course, it's not just James I'm angry at but he was the first person I saw out of the three of them so now I'm extra mad at him.
I just need to cool off.
I walked down the halls, being faced with dirty looks, pitiful looks, forced smiles, expressions of hatred, slurs and comments.
"Fag"
"Traitor"
"I didn't know you were a gay boy, Regulus"
I brush them all off.
I just keep walking.
I clench my jaw and take deep breaths.
I clench my fists and stomp my feet as I walk.
But I just keep walking.
"Reggie, there you are, are you alright?" Asks Sirius as he catches me in the hallway.
Perfect, just the person I didn't want to bump into, the universe is not my friend today.
"No I'm not fucking alright, Sirius, why do you have to be such a prick?"
"Woah, Reg, I was trying to protect you"
"Yeah well it didn't fucking work did it?"
"I'd appreciate it if you didn't use that tone with me"
"I'd appreciate it if you stopped shoving your nose in my business but we can't all get what we want can we?"
I walk away, deciding that I can't be bothered with any of this anymore. I don't have the energy to deal with it all right now.
I just keep walking.
I instead head down to the Slytherin common room so I can hopefully just sleep for the rest of the day provided Evan and Barty aren't still getting it on.
I get to the Slytherin common room and it's actually quite busy, however, it seems to go deed silent the moment I step foot in the common room. Fantastic. I'm the talk of the fucking town apparently, which makes me the centre of attention, and honestly, I want the ground to swallow me whole.
"Traitor" someone spits at me
I walk straight past them, I'm not giving them the time of day.
Just keep walking, Regulus. Just keep walking.
"You scared of us or something?" the same person asks when I blatantly ignore them, defeating their efforts to get a rise out of me
I stop walking.
I should keep on walking, but I refuse to just take this abuse like a mug, I stop walking, I'm going to rise to their bait.
"Why on God's great Earth would I be scared of you there's fuck all to be scared of, you just don't deserve my time" I reply
"Someone's mad, what're you gonna do? Run and tell your boyfriend?" I don't even know who the fuck this guy is.
"Are you just jealous that I'm getting laid? You should try it some time, it's quite good if I do say so myself, obviously you wouldn't know, you might as well have virgin tattooed across your forehead, you radiate frigidness" I state bluntly.
I don't actually think there's anything bad about virginity, I just knew it would shut this dickhead up. I really am not as mean as I'm going to make myself look today.
Funnily enough, he has nothing else to say after that which is good because thinking of such great insults is tiring.
As I walk to my dorm I see Severus Snape and I can feel the anger coursing through my veins and rising within me. I want to beat him senseless and feed him to the giant squid, but I think that's a bit far and I want to be the bigger person so I refrain from doing that. However, I wasn't going to do nothing and let him think he has the upper hand.
So I walk over to him and swiftly grab him firmly by the chin and shove him against the wall.
"You disgust me, you filthy piece of shit" I spit, ensuring to tighten my grip on his chin before throwing him aside and carrying on.
I finally get to my dormitory and knock on the door. "Come in" I hear Evan say.
Thank Merlin, I really want to sleep.
I walk in and close the door behind me before walking over to my bed and collapsing onto it.
"Reg, we heard about you and Potter" Evan says
"Yeah you as well as everyone and their fucking nan apparently" I reply
"Well Evan owes me twenty galleons" Barty states
"You guys made a bet on whether I was dating James Potter or not?" I ask
"Well you were seeing someone, we just didn't know who" replies Evan
"I guess we all had our secrets confirmed today" I state
"You knew about me and Barty?" Asks Evan
"You two are not very good about keeping your little thing secret" I reply
"I wasn't trying to keep it a secret" Barty says nonchalantly
"Look, Snape made a dick move, it'll blow over" Evan says, trying his best to comfort me
"Guys I really don't want to talk about it but I would really like to go to sleep for a bit so if you guys don't mind I'm just going to ignore the world for a while" I reply
They both nod and I feel a sense of relief. I take out my wand "Muffliato" I say so that no one can hear me and I can't hear them.
As soon as I'm sure I'm out of ear shot and on my own, I cry. I just let out every emotion that has been building up inside of me today.
After about twenty minutes, I finally fall asleep and let me tell you, it has to be one of the best naps I have ever taken in my entire life. It didn't change my mood, but it certainly made me feel well rested, that's for sure.
I actually didn't wake up until dinner, and that was only because Evan woke me up.
"Mate, it's dinner now, don't want you going hungry"
Evan cares in the most odd ways, but it's nice of him really. The last thing I want to do is walk into the great hall but my rumbling stomach is forcing me to.
I sit up and rub my eyes, as much as I needed that sleep, I'm still angry, still in an absolutely foul mood.
I trudge all the way down to the Great Hall, planning to just eat and leave as quick as possible.
I sit down with Barty and Evan in the hopes that people will just leave me alone. Someone does come and join us, but that someone is Dora, so I don't mind.
"Hey, Dora" we all say in unison.
"Hey" she says sweetly as she sits next to me.
"Reggie, are you okay? I heard what happened" Dora asks
I just shrug "It's happened now, nothing I can do about it" I reply
I don't want to be bitter, but I am so angry.
"I didn't take a Black family member to be a Slytherin traitor, I thought Sirius was the embarrassment" says Shaylé Ellis, a fourth year Slytherin
"That's so funny, Shaylé, because I thought you only opened your fat gob when there's a cock in front of it" I spit at her "Sorry, Dora" I turn to Dora to apologise for my vulgar language in front of her.
"Are you slut shaming me?" Asks Shaylé
"If the wand fits" I reply
Shaylé is so stunned by my insult that she has nothing else to say and instead just walks away.
Like I said, I'm in a foul mood.
"I like this side of Regulus" says Barty with a smirk on his face "we should get you in a bad mood more often" he adds.
We continue to eat uninterrupted which I'm grateful for, but of course, I must have sinned constantly in a past life so the universe hates me because Severus Snape walks past us.
I can see Evan and Barty's jaws clench. They hate him as much as I do. That makes me feel a tad bit better, it proves that they do care about me, that they're true friends.
I'm surprised Snape has the balls to even look in my direction after the stunt I pulled on him earlier. I really do hope he isn't stupid enough to believe that I wouldn't do that again if he said something to annoy me, because I would, I really would, because it felt fucking amazing when I did it earlier.
"What are you looking at?" Asks Barty through gritted teeth
"Just the talk of the town" replies Snape, with a smirk
"I swear to fuck Snape, you even breathe in his direction" Barty threatens
"And you'll do what exactly?" Asks Snape
"I'm not afraid of you" Barty replies
"I'm sure" Snape states, almost bored of the conversation. Merlin I hate him, I hate him with every fibre of my being.
"Run along, Snivellous, I'm sure those Slytherins don't wait up for their bitch, I'd hate to see you be replaced so soon" the familiar voice of my brother states
Snape turns to face Sirius
"How...touching that you would stand up for your little brother"
"It's funny because I'm searching, truly I am, and yet, I can't seem to find where the fuck I asked" Sirius states blandly "My apologies, Pandora, I don't mean to be so crude" Sirius turns to Pandora to ensure he hasn't offended her which I respect. She simply smiles and waves him off, but I can tell she appreciates his consideration.
"You always are so full of wit"
"You flatter me, Snivelly, but I believe I told you to run along"
"I don't remember having to take orders from you"
"Snape, I'm being nice, but if you don't move the fuck away from my brother in ten seconds flat I will curb stomp you" Sirius then quickly turns his attention back to Pandora "Sorry again, darl" he says with a smile and a wink which she can't help but smile at with a small shake of her head. I love Dora's smile, I would pay her to smile all day every day if I could. The world deserves to see her smile, it's so innocent, so pure, so wonderful. It's one of my favourite things, just below James' smile.
I miss James.
I have never seen Sirius turn so...well, serious, so quickly. It was actually a bit scary, and I can see Snape thought the same because he took no time in walking away from us.
"I don't need you to protect me" I state as soon as Snape is gone
"I didn't see you intervening just then. You can be as mad at me as you want, Reg, but I'm not going to stop protecting you because you're having a hissy fit"
Before I can retort, Sirius walks away. I guess he decided he didn't want to pick a fight, he just wanted to get his point across. I can respect that.
"Thanks for having my back's guys" I say to Barty and Evan who regard me with a nod.
I catch a glimpse of James across the great hall.
I miss James.
He looks as miserable as I feel and for a moment my heart shatters.
I didn't even take a moment to think about how all of this must be impacting him, the emotions he must be feeling. I hope Sirius isn't giving him a hard time, but from the looks of it, Sirius isn't acknowledging James at all which must make this so much worse for James. My heart aches for him. I want to engulf him in a big hug, kiss his forehead and tell him everything will be okay while I run my fingers through his messy mass of curls, but I can't do that, because I don't know if everything is going to be okay and I treated him awfully earlier. I need to set things right with him.

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