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Regulus

TW: mentions of death, mentions of vomit

I'm in another Death Eater meeting.
I hate these so much.
We're in a different mansion this time, sitting along a long white marble table with deep green high backed chairs which are so fucking uncomfortable.
"My loyal followers" The Dark Lord begins with his snake-like voice that creeps me out so much. "We will not remain in this location long, I have a plan for us to attack" The Dark Lord continues. I feel my stomach drop, but try my hardest to remain stoic so as to not let on that anything is bothering me. "I want to attack Hogsmeade" The Dark Lord announces, a grin spreading on his face.
"The entire village?" Asks a man near the end of the table.
"Yes, I want to...what is the phrase? Wreak havoc" The Dark Lord replies "I do not want any of you to hold back, I want to see destruction, torture, kill if you must, we must make our statement. I want you all to cast the Dark Mark over those you have killed to show the power that I hold. We leave now" The Dark Lord continues.
We all join hands in a cult-like fashion and apparate out of the mansion and immediately into Hogsmeade. The apparition makes me feel sick, but I shove the feeling down and focus on the task at hand. I follow a group to begin with, they start shooting curses into buildings, so I do the same.
Immediately, people start running and screaming, some try fighting back, it turns messy really quickly. The first killing curse hits which is evidenced by the formation of the Dark Mark in the sky, my stomach plummets, but I have a reputation to maintain.
A woman runs off from a Death Eater nearby me "Get her!" He shouts at me, I want to panic but I don't. I'll save that for later. I turn to face the woman "Avada Kedavra" I shout, hitting her square in the chest. My first ever kill.
I had to set an example, I had to show them why the Dark Lord is beginning to favour me, I have to show them that they can't mess around with me.
I aim my wand up to the sky "Mosmorde" I say, causing the Dark Mark to form in the sky above the woman I just killed.
The woman who's name I don't know.
The woman who was someone's daughter, probably someone's life, maybe someone's mother, maybe someone's sister.
I shake off those thoughts, I can feel later, right now I need to continue, I can't show any signs of weakness, these Death Eaters are like animals, they'll pounce on any sign of weakness.
In the midst of my thoughts my arm gets scraped with a fiendfyre curse and it hurts like a bitch but I grit my teeth and pull through.
I shoot some more unforgivables at people, mainly the cruciatus, but only once, feeling awful every time.
Eventually the Dark Lord calls us back to the mansion we began in and I cannot even explain the relief I felt knowing that the terror was over.
"This has been excellent. I shall expect to see this on the front page of the Daily Prophet tomorrow, Dumbledore can't hold off this war any longer, and the ministry can no longer ignore it, I have made my intentions clear, it can only get better for me from here" The Dark Lord announces
"You are all dismissed" The Dark Lord continues.
We all join hands once more and apparate, appearing right outside of Hogsmeade.
I split off from the rest of the group and walk back up to the castle.
In the end I managed to get away with a burn and a few nasty cuts.
As soon as I'm far away enough, I double over and throw up on the grass.
"Scrougify" I say, pointing my wand at my vomit in the grass, making it disappear.
When I get to the castle, I head to Gryffindor Tower and wait there until the portrait opens. It soon does and when I follow the student that opens it inside I find James sat in the corner with a charms book so I walk over to him
"Hey, Reg, how'd you get in?" Asks James with a smile. I want to smile back, but I can't, I can't smile.
"Followed someone in, can we go somewhere private?" I ask. His face falters slightly and he nods, gesturing for me to follow him, so I do.
The moment we get into his dorm room and he closes the door, I bury my face in the crook of his neck and sob.
"Hey, hey what's wrong?" Asks James, immediately rubbing my back, pulling me closer, trying his hardest to comfort me.
I don't deserve to be comforted.
"James, I've done something terrible, I'm so sorry" I cry into his shoulder
"Regulus, baby, what happened? You can tell me" James replies
"I'm so sorry" I repeat
"Hey, you can't apologize if I don't know what you're apologizing for" James says soothingly, kissing the top of my head.
Fuck sake.
He's being so nice, I can't possibly tell him what I've done, he's so good, and I'm terrible, I'm horrible. I lift my head from his shoulder to look at him, he cups my face with his hands and looks into my eyes. He lifts his thumbs and swipes my tears from my cheeks.
Oh he's so lovely.
"You're going to think I'm horrible after I tell you, but I just need you to listen the whole way through" I preface.
James simply nods and sits on his bed. I slowly walk over and sit down next to him, inhaling sharply and fiddling with my hands, looking down into my lap as I slowly explain the most recent events
"Holy fuck" James says the moment I'm finished
"I know, I'm so sorry, I don't blame you if you think I'm terrible" I reply quickly
"What? No, no not at all, Reg, I'm so sorry you had to be put through that" James says, he kneels down on the floor in front of me, cupping my face in his hands and looking at me again.
"You are not a bad person. You aren't terrible, or horrible. You are trying so hard to be better than the person you could very easily become with the people you are being subject to. You have to deal with so much, more than anyone our age could even fathom. This is war, Regulus, it's not pretty, this is the time where we set aside what's inherently good and what's inherently bad and we do what is right, what is necessary, which is exactly what you are doing. I admire you, Regulus. You know, the other Death Eaters are probably feeling a rush from what just happened, that's what makes you different, you know what happened was wrong, you're remorseful for the action you took" James says softly, his eyes never leaving mine.
"How are you so perfect? You always know what to say" I reply quietly
"I just know you, Reg, I know what you need to hear, and I never have an issue being the one to tell you, I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, I just love you"
"I love you too"
"You don't have to say it"
"No, I mean it, I love you"
James leans in and kisses me, I kiss him back slowly, his thumb runs across my cheek as he continues to kiss me lovingly.
"Let me get you cleaned up, love, you have some awful cuts" James says as he pulls away from the kiss.
"I have a burn on my arm too" I reply, feeling like he should know that now instead of finding out later when he inevitably takes my clothes off at some point in the, hopefully, nearby future.
"That's okay, love, I have some healing stuff" James says softly with a small smile that causes my heart to skip a beat.
He cleans up my wound and rubs some essence of dittany on my burn which makes it feel ten times better.
I finally feel like I can breathe again.
"You should talk to Dumbledore about this" James says
"I know I should, I don't want him to think that I'm a true Death Eater, though" I reply worriedly
"He won't, his job is to keep you safe, I asked him as much months ago and I'll die before he stops ensuring your safety"
"Don't say things like that, don't make me so important"
"You are important, you're one of the most important people in my life and I won't lose you, especially not to this war, I will do whatever it takes to keep your life safe and I don't care whether that means it costs my own"
"I'm not losing you to this war either so you'd better find another way to play hero that includes keeping your life in tact" my tone is now quite stern which takes both of us by surprise
"I'll try my best, baby, I promise" James says softly, rubbing up and down my arm.
I nod and lean into him, so desperate to feel his lips against mine, to feel his hands on my body. I kiss him, he's like my drug, every time my lips touch his I get a rush, he's like an addiction that I crawl back to every time and I'll never be ashamed of it.
James kisses me back and I'm so desperate for more, I need him closer, I need him.
"I'm all yours, James" I say into his lips, wasting no time in kissing him again.
"And I'm all yours, baby" He replies, continuing to kiss me.
The kiss grows deeper and soon I've shifted so that I'm laid down on James' bed and he's on top of me. I need him to move, to grind against me, to do something, I need him to feel how much I want him right now.
Finally, he gives me what I want, he grinds his hips against mine and I whimper at the small amount of friction granted to me. James hums in approval and nibbles at my ear lobe which drives me crazy. I buck my hips up, craving more, needing more.
James obliges and presses himself down harder onto me earning a throaty moan.
"Fuck, baby, when you sound like that it drives me insane" James groans into the crook of my neck, continuing to grind his hips into mine.
He kisses down my neck and his hand snakes down my body, gripping the crotch of my jeans which causes me to whimper again, so James grips harder before he palms me through my jeans, making me moan and buck my hips more, needing more of him.
His hand slips below the line of my boxers and he grips my length, making me shudder, he pumps my shaft as he kisses me, muffling my moans.
Suddenly the door opens and James pulls away from me to look over at the door
"Would you mind not touching up my little brother?" Asks Sirius
I watch James' cheeks redden and I can feel mine do the very same.
Getting walked in on by friends is one thing.
But my brother? That's next level embarrassment
"Sorry, Pads, couldn't help myself, he's just so pretty" James replies as he lifts himself off of me.
In this moment I think I could probably slap my brother, I was getting exactly what I wanted, what I needed and he ruined it.
I glower at him and he laughs "don't sulk, Reggie, I'm sure you can get dicked down by James whenever you want" Sirius says
"He's right" James chips in but immediately shuts up when Sirius stares pointedly at him.
"Thanks for offering up James' services on his behalf, Sirius, classy as always, anyway, I'm gonna go" I say, turning to James and giving him a peck on the cheek before leaving.
I can't believe I got blue balled by my own brother

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Hello there my lovelies!

Confession to make first: this was supposed to be published yesterday but I fell asleep giga early so have an early morning update! Anyway, Reggie has had his first battle bless his little cotton socks and of course we have some Jegulus angst which was inevitably going to lead to Jegulus spice but I thought I'd attempt to add comedic relief with Sirius interrupting them because they can't get away with shagging anywhere and not getting caught every time. Anyways, I hope yous enjoyed this one! I'll catch you in the next one! Until then, have a great day!

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All my everlasting love,
Blue<3