Credible Love

Chapter 17

Chapter 17

Snatch

Binagsak ko ang pintuan ng lumabas na ako sa sasakynan niya. Kanina niya pa ako hindi iniimikan dahil akala nya ay iyon ang gusto ko.

Parang gabi pa ng lumabas ako at pinagtitingnan ang mga taong nakadala na ng payong. Nasa may parking naman kami at hawak ko namn ag payong ko. Dahan dahan akong lumayo roon at hinayaan siyang mag isa muna.

Para naman kaming mag asawa talaag ito. Career na career ang show ah. The show must go on.

I walked slowly as I begin to roam my eyes. The issue is now cooled down. Wala na ang accusation sa akin na katulad ko din daw si mommy. I don’t know with them, but why did they know about it when Mommy is from Manila and Daddy is literally from Caledonia, his hometown?

Isang text ang nakapagpatigil sa akin. Nasa entrane na ako habang pinagmamasdan ang sasakyan niyang aalis sa harapan ko.

Felix:

Goodluck with your day. I hope you have the urge to compose yourself with youur with me.

With smiley face na emoji pa.

I don’t know with myself, I don’t know to the people around me. They said that I should be the one who compromise and understand. But yet there’s someone who understand and wait patiently for me to speak up. Buong buhay ko hinid ko yan naramdaman kay mommy. Lagi kong nakikita at nahuhulaan sa kanila na ganyan nga ang gawin. Buong buhay ko gusto kong maramdman iyon sa mga tao.

Daddy can fight for me to well when mommy is around. Sinasabi niya sa akin na ganyan nga ang gawin sa bawat tao kaya nakasanayan ko. Well, hndi naman paa siya ang palaging ganyan sa akin pero na realized ko na siya palang ang unang lalaking hindi ko tatay ang gumawa niyan sa akin.

I always used to please and understand people around me. I always understand their reasons and whatsoever so that I can build peace but for now., people are adjusting to build peace for me. One person who is adjusting for us to be okay ad that will I cherish when I will leave everything to him.

“Grace, you’re early now huh."

Sa tono plaang ay parang masisira na ang araw ko. Nandito ngayon ang lalaking minsan ng hindi ako inintidihan. Mayabang niya akong tiningnan habang binabalingan ko siya. Hindi naman sa nangdidir ako sa kanya pero ganon na nga, hindi dahil ginawa niya kundi dahil sa pambabaoy niya sa akin.

He is the reason why I am afraid to open my heart again to someone new. No matter how much I tried to compromise and understand myself for not capable of doing so. I am still in the healing stage or understanding the root I was planted for. Gusto kong tanggalin na ang laaht ng to. But all I want is closure and apologize sincerely but it will never come. No matter how much I am eager to hear it all from him. It was nothing but void.

Hindi ko siyang nilingon pa at nilampasan na lang. Maybe I should find closure with him and be casual but I don’t feel it will come all the way when every time I looked at him, it feels a hole.

“You should never hang out with that man, Grace, I don’t like him for you,” aniya pa sa akin.

Parang masama na bumubulong sa akin. Nakasunod pa pala siya sa akin.

Pilit kong binabaliwala ang presensya na. HAbang nasa tabi ko siya ay dala niya ay panganib. Naalala ko ang traumang nadasngan ko sa kanya.

He was nothing but a dangerous boy I ever knew. I don’t know if he will regret all of it but while looking at his blue eyes, I can look at him like a hole, nothing inside but murder and empty.