Credible Love

Chapter 48

Chapter 48

Relationship

Is this love? Is love can make you devasted and unclear to yourself? Is love can question your worth as well? Is love can never be in good shape? Is true love exist in this world full of cheaters?

I opened my eyes.

I can feel someone sitting next to me. I let my angle in the side where he is not there.

"How are you love?'

Should I believe Felix? Or should I suspect something?

I heard him sigh. I remained silent. A warm hand stopped my hand. But I don't mind him.

The cold wind is still on us. The aircon begins to produce more wind. That is at least our sound.

"Nakita kita malapit sa cliff at kinuha kita roon. May problema ba? Hindi mo ako kinausap mula roon."

I can hear my long sigh. I can't talk to him.

Why do I have to feel these wounds and pains that I never always wanted to have? Why do I have this when I don't want this in the first place?

The ring letting me to wake up when all I want is to sleep for more. Tinabunan ko ang aking tenga gamit ang isang unan.

The phone ring again and again until I can touched for me. Minulat ko pa ang aking mga mata para tingnan kung sino ito. But it turns off after I swipe it. Kumunot ang noo ko habang binabalingan na ngayon ang cellphone ni Felix.

It has a lot of missed calls. I swipe up the text from the lockscreen and I can see a message from Olivia and a lot of misssed calls. Napabangon ako ng maayos. Paulit ulit ko itong tinitingnan hanggang sa mapagod akong chinecheck kung tama ba ang nakita ko.

Olivia:

I love you, babe. See you tonight. Let our worlds collide.

Hindi ko na napigilan na ibagsak ang kanyang phone kung saaan. Isang ingay nag aking narinig hanggang sa napahawak ako sa aking bibig. Trying to stop a sounds from me.

I closed my eyes and explode the tears I am dealing with. I want to hold it for a while but there's something on my neck I can resist the pain inflicting again on me I shook my head and begin to look at the window where the sun is alive and the people are all alive. But this feeling of mine wants to end. I want this all in a nice correlation.

I can still imagine how this world turns like this. How our world chaotic as I never wanted it to be.

The cold breeze went to my vein until I can sense my shivering. But I manage to walk despite the cold breeze in their hacienda.

Namataan kong sumakay siya sa kayang kabayo. Kumunot ang noo ko ng kumaway siya kung ano. I run towards him and called him but he remained deaf to me. He remained blind for me, I know someone will last his eyes long. I know he will never want me in the beginning. I know he is a force for this.

All my life, I hate lies. All my life, I want all perfect in place but I never. I want a perfect relationship. I want no secrets, I trust him. The moment I accept him. The moment he really never told the truth.

I am all secrets to him, but he remained a force and chain in this marriage that will never exist if I never say so. Was his action pure towards me?

Ang hirap paniwalaan na niloko niya ako. Pero kung ganon nga, ang galing niya naman.

"Felix," tawag ko pa sa kanya habang palayo na siya sa aking mga mata. Patungo na kung saaan.

"Grace!"

I closed my eyes and I gritted my teeth as I heard her voice. Her sweet but dangerous voice. Something I don't want to hear.

Lumingon ako sa kanya na hawak ang tiyan habang loose ang kanyang damit. Napako ang aking mga mata sa hinihimas himas niya sa kanyang tiyan. She is always have a fitted outfits and it is my first time to see her in this loose dress, parang daster but I can't understand every detail of it. Umahon ako sa kanya ng magsalita ns iya.

" Ito ang batang nagsisimbolo ng pagmamhaalan namin. Thanks to you, ninang ka ha. Ang bait mo kasi," aniya.

Napaawang ang aking labi. Umiiling sa kanyang piangsasabi.

"At paano kung iba ang ama niyan? Paano kung pinapa akin mo lang siya diyan kahit hindi talaga siya. Who will believe in you, Olivia?"

"Say something you didn't tell me while I am now pleading to know the truth!" I said with a strong voice I never was before when Felix entered our room.

My heart is aching and my tears are exploding.

I am tired for being stupid for love. Last time I check, he is business with business and he is with Olivia. Noon palang ay hindi ako nanghinala na maaring may relasyon nga sila nauna pa sa amin. Ngayon ko lang napagtakpi takpi na maaring niloloko niya nga lang ako.

"I don't have anything to tell you. This is probably a prank. Olivia is---"

I slapped him hard.

Umiling siya at hinawakan ang aking mag barso. Lumayo na ako sa kanya at pilit na pumipiglas. I wailed and cried for more.

"Buntis siya, Felix. May anak kayo. And I am really thinking to let you go for the sake of the baby."

"Ganyan lang ba kadali lahat ng pinakita ko sayo noon, Grace? Are you tired? Relax. Are you mad? Calm down. This is not the solution for everything. I will understand you the way you understand me. We are a team, right? This is probably a misunderstanding," aniya.

"But the whole truth is with you, Felix. Ikaw na nakakaalam kung niloko mo ba ako o hindi. Ayaw kong makasira ng pamilya mo. Ayaw kong masira nag kinabuksan ng bata. Gusto ko buo siya. Magpaparaya ako kung hindi mo kayang tumayo sa paninidigan mo, Felix. Because that's what I love you!"nanghihina kong boses namamos at nagmakakawa sa kanya.

"Listen, Grace, let's talk about this tomorrow. If we push this now, we will end up shouting at each other. As much as I want to end this argument and be happy. I have pride too. We need to understand each other. Sleep now and we can talk about this tomorrow. We can fix this issue, Grace. I hope we can talk clearly with an cold mind and talk sincerely," sabay paubaya sa aking mga kamay.

Umiling ako sa kanya.

"Bakit hindi ngayon?"

"We don't need to fight, Grace. We just need to understand each other," he declared.

And he closed my eyes. I nodded and understand it right now.

I want to utter more words but I am afraid I might tell something wrong which I never wanted to happen.