Credible Love

Chapter 47

Chapter 47

Tight

I lowered my gaze and looked at him again. I eyed him carefully.

"I know I have mistakes, I should wait for her and even when she didn't say a word after she left. I am in devasting at some point. Nandiyan ang mommy mo to shoulder me. I should cry. Until she confess, hindi ko siya pinansin noon anak. Alam kong mahal ko pa ang Tita Venus mo. Util I heard from your grandfather that Venus has an admired and soon to be his husband. Kailangan daw siyang ipakasal sa iba for the sake of the their company. "

Kumunot ang noo ko. Lumapit ako sa kanya ng konte.

"Did she knows about this?"

He shook his head at my lower tone.

"Hindi ako tumigil. Hinabol ko siya sa aboard, and I confirmed it right away. Kaya umuwi akong luhaan, nandoon si Mercury sa akin. Until I lean to love her too. Ilang taon din iyon hanggang sa nalaman ko na hindi niya pala pinakasalan iyon. Pero huli na ang lahat. Kasal na ako at meron ka na. I can sense her reaction about our marriage but she choose to keep her mouth close. Congrats lang ang natanggap ko sa kanya hanggang sa lumipad na na naman siya sa abaroad. Wala siyang sinabi na mahal niya pa ako. At wala naman din akong pagmamahal na sa kanya. I have your mommy in my lowest point and she had me in her lowest point too."

He paused and looked at me again.

"Your mommy didn't want to suffer the same path as she is. But I always pushed her to prove everyone wrong. Until you tell us you want to pursue a pageant."

"But she didn't tell me about that thing. She should explain that to me,"  wika ko.

"No anak, ayaw niyang maiba ang pakikitungo mo sa kanya."

Umiling ako at naapawang ang bibig." But she is still my mother. Of course, I will accept her for who she is."

"But I push you to go with your passion. Because I believe in you and you know to hold your dreams?"

"But thank you, daddy. Thank you for being with me and always believing In me after all the years had passed. You are my inspiration too."

"It is not about me anak. It is your determination to win the crown. Being a Miss Powerful is not easy. It is the hardest one than modeling."

"Love...."

I closed my mouth when I saw Olivia walking towards me. With a plastered smile on her face.

Nilingon niya ang ginagawa ko at nilagay na sa gilid ito.

"Well, your love is not with you today. Busy? At ano yan? Kadiri nito. Dapat hindi iyan kinakamay. Wala ka bang manners?" pagtataong niay sa akin at umupo na sa highchair.

Kinuha naman ng isang maid sa akin ang aking minamarinate at nilagay muna sa ref. Umalis din siya pagkatapos para bigyan kami ng space.

I sighed and tried to avoid her presence.

"Ang baboy mo naman. Kaya pala nakuha mo si Felix. Well, ang dumi mong maghanda ng pagkain. At paano kung anong nilagay mo para gayumahin siya. I will tell this to Tita Gianna," sabay suri niya pa sa kamay ko.

Tinago ko ko at nagtungo sa sink.

"Marunong po akong magluto. At malinis po ang aking kamay bago ko sinawsaw doon," hindi ako tumingin habang binibigkas ko ito.

I opened the faucet and washed my hands. The sounds of the water are now in my head. I can sense that she is near me. But I managed to sprinkle my hands without any trace of water for her.

" Felix is in love with me since the beginning. He never cheated on you, pinabayaan ko lang siya sayo dahil kawawa ang mommy mo. Your mommy plead infront of Tita Gianna. To marry you, to secure your future and let Felix handle the company you guys have. Syempre Tita Gianna say sorry to me, she loves me for being a daughter-in-law. Pero alam kung bibitawan ka rin niya pagdating ng panahon,"she said.

I laughed at her statement. I shook my head.

"Really? Or are you making up a story?" palaban kong ani sa kanya.

Lumapit siya ng dahna dahan sa akin. hindi ako nagpatinag.

"I pity you for pushing yourself to, Felix. When in the first place, he belongs to someone else.. like me. Are you not mad at yourself? Are you a kind woman? Or a pretender woman I know."

"Talaga? Kung mahal ka niya. Bakit nasa akin siya ngayon? Bakit ako ang pinakasalan at katabi matulog?"

One more move and I check my cheeks for another pain for me. Lumngon ako sa kanya na nakaawang angbibig.

"Olivia!"

"What? No, I have something to say her," her words were muffled when Henry dragged her out into the swimming pool area.

I am worried about Henry for doing that. I don't know what to do.

Nawawalan ako ng lakas ng loob habang naglalaakd ako patungo sa kung saan. The southern wind blew my hair away and my hair is quiet messy.

I continue to walk. My tears started to explode as I walked and walked until I can.

This is why I don't want to have his back in my life. My traumas started to be alive as I heard that news. Is it true? Why I am expecting him to tell me the truth?

I stopped and begin to roam my eyes. I am now in the middle of nowhere. Ngayon ko lang rin napansin na napadpad na ako rito. I closed my eyes as the wind passed again and one more tears explode from my eyes. it is now starting to roll down my cheeks.

I covered my face with my hands. I started to  escape my long sobs. As the water begin to rollled down on my body. Niyakap ko ang sarili ko. Umaalon na ang paningin ko at hindi ko na namataan ng maayos ang daanan habang nasa damuhan ako. I can see the waves crashing in the shore. But I closed my eyes as another thunder begin to roar.

I heard someone shouting from nowhere, but I don't mind who it that. I am now soaking wet, with my white dress with white sandals.

My face is serious, cannot be able to utter a word since the moment left the hacienda.

In the first place, I don't know what I am doing but I can control myself to imagine how my life will be if I never accept the proposal since the beginning. The guilty flow in me. The way I can see the cliff. I know this is all the end.

I covered my face with my hand as I began to explode again. Remembering how I was when I was a child.

May mga ingay mula sa malayo akong narinig mula sa himapapwid. The rain can stop itself from pouring down water in Caledonia. I can stop myself to wonder and overthink if it is true.

I looked to the cliff and step forward.