1 Sun, 6 Moons: Last Memories | Sunoo x Enhypen

Chapter 53 | S1: Just Like Him

Sunoo's POV

"Heartstopper..."

"Hm? Wait lemme find it. What's it about?" Jay asked.

"All I know is it's about the love of two boys. I think it's based off a book. I just watched the trailer." I said, truth be told, even if the girls told me to watch it, I didn't have the time.

We started watching the first episode, and I couldn't help but glance at Jay occasionally to gauge his reactions.

"W-Wow *hiccup* that was... actually good for a first episode." He said, stuttering and hiccuping, effects of all the alcohol he drank.

"Yeah, it's really good," I agreed, trying to keep my excitement in check.

We continued watching, and as the episodes went by, we got more engrossed in the characters and their journey. We laughed together at the funny scenes and had deep discussions about the emotional moments.

By the time we reached the end, it was already... Oh my gosh... 3 am... I realized that Jay had gotten quite drunk from the beers we had earlier, but I was still surprisingly sober... Well, I only drank two and a half bottles. He leaned back on the bed frame, looking a bit dazed.

"Sunoo," Jay slurred, his words slightly slurred. "I'm like Nick hahaha. I'm surprised that you picked such a show."

I raised an eyebrow, not quite sure what he meant. "What do you mean? You like Charlie too?" I said jokingly.

"Haha no silly, I mean I- Agh fuck... I'm confused about my fucking gender bro," he said, his voice vulnerable and raw. My eyes widened at the revelation. "I *hiccup* don't know... I just feel lost sometimes."

My heart went out to him, and I gently put a hand on his shoulder. "Hey, it's okay to feel that way. Exploring your identity is a journey, and it's completely normal to feel uncertain. You don't have to have everything figured out right now. Didn't you remember the show's lesson?"

He took a deep breath, his drunken words becoming more honest. "I... I liked Seunghee, but before her... I liked Jungwon... he was so cute in our gymnastic *hiccup* class, but..."

...

"B-But *hiccup* now... I like you..." I was taken aback by his confession, my heart racing. I hadn't expected this revelation, especially in his current state, but I knew that alcohol could make people more candid.

"Jay, you're drunk," I said softly, trying to handle the situation delicately.

Jay looked at me with teary eyes, and I could see the vulnerability in his gaze. "I'm not! Okay? I... *hiccup* I really love you..."

I stayed quiet for a moment, unsure of how to respond.

"I wish I was just attracted to you... t-that's why *hiccup* I was so fucking angry that Jake *hiccup* left you, cause I- I... I didn't want you to get hurt *hiccup*" He said, eyes already closed. After some time, he already passed out

I gently helped him lie down on the bed, making sure he was comfortable.

"Sunoo... I-" Jay spoke again, but I cut him off.

"Get some rest, Jay," I said softly. "We can talk about this we're both s-sober."

He nodded, his eyes closing as he drifted off to sleep. I settled down on the bed beside him, feeling a mix of emotions. I knew that Jay was going through a lot, and I wanted to be there for him, but I also needed to be mindful of his feelings. Is this... what his mom is talking about...?