October 13th, 2022
Jesper, New York
Working with Jisoo turned out better than I thought it would be. There was basically not that much I could teach her, because she was already incredibly skilled. When I asked her how that was even possible, she simply said that she's been studying a lot, mostly by herself. She complained about not having any good teachers at Langone, that's why she had to take care of her education on her own, and well, she definitely outdid herself.
We were just walking out of our last surgery scheduled for today, a successful heart transplant, when she got a bit carried away with talking about hearts, which I loved about her, because I could never find a person who'd be as fascinated with them as I was, when the conversation was interrupted by her pager. "Oh right, I was supposed to meet Yohan for dinner tonight, I completely forgot about it," she said, sighing heavily just thinking about it. "Do you want to come?" She asked.
"I don't want to impose on your time with your brother," I answered, though it's not what I was thinking at all. I'd love to go with her. "How is he by the way, has he made a decision about the Chief position yet?" I asked curiously. I knew that she knew about it as well, and well, she was even more surprised than I was.
"It's only been a few days, he's still thinking about it," Jisoo shrugged, and as we walked by the nurse's station, one of the nurses came up to us and looked at me with a pleasant smile. "Doctor Harris, there's a man waiting for you by the elevators. He said that he knows you, but it's better to be safe than sorry, so I asked him to wait outside of the cardiac ward," she said.
"Oh, thank you, nurse Claire, it was probably for the best," I returned the smile and looked at the glass door separating our ward from the corridor. I saw someone sitting there, but I couldn't really recognize the person. "I wonder who it could be," I spoke. It's not like I had any friends, so it must have been some patient.
And since I was already on my way out anyway, I didn't mind coming up to that person and ask what brought him here. Jisoo walked out with me, since she was always working the same hours as me, and she waved in goodbye at me, when she touched the elevator button. I waved right back her and made my way a bit closer to the person who was apparently waiting for me.
I wish I haven't though. I wish I went with her, I wish I agreed to that dinner, I wish I ran far away from here before I saw his face. A face I haven't seen in years. Literally last time I saw him was about ten years ago, when I threw a restraining order at his face. It was Jay.
"W-what the hell are you doing here?" I asked. I was shaking by now, I couldn't calm myself down, so I took a few steps back. Why would he be here anyway? How would he know where I work? It's not like I ever told him that much about myself, he only knew that I lived somewhere in New York and that I wanted to be a doctor, not much else.
"Jesper," the man stood up from the chair and looked up at me with a smile. "I'm so glad I finally found you," he said and came closer, and at that, I immediately panicked.
"No, stay back. Stay back!" I yelled, loud enough so that someone would hear me. My voice was shaking, my hands were shaking, my whole fucking body was shaking. "D-don't come any closer to me. Don't you d-dare come any closer," I whispered brokenly. It's funny how past traumas can affect us sometimes. I literally haven't thought of him for like five years, or more. I erased him from my existence. And here he was, in my city, at my hospital. What the fuck.
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I Let Myself Want You
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