June 20th, 2023
Yohan, New York
When I woke up I looked at the clock right away and noticed that it was already noon. We both took the day off today, because that's what Jesper wanted to do, and I wasn't about to decline. We didn't talk much after his breakdown at the hospital. I just took him home and he spent the rest of the evening crying in my arms, so much that he actually cried himself to sleep.
I hated it so much. That's why I didn't want to tell him about the tumor in the first place, because I didn't want to see him like that, because I knew it would break him, probably more than it broke me. He was already so happy and I didn't want to ruin that happiness. Well, I guess it's too late now.
I got a few calls from Malcolm last night, asking about my sight and some other things, but I just told him that I'll call him tomorrow, because I finally told Jesper the truth and I had to take care of him. Malcolm said that I should call him as soon as I have some time. He also informed me that he told Jisoo about everything yesterday, which wasn't ideal, because I wanted to tell her about it myself, but oh well, it happened. It seemed like Malcolm seriously wanted to tell someone about it, probably so that he wouldn't have to carry this burden by himself. I understood that. That's why I wasn't really mad about him telling Jisoo.
I wanted to get up from the bed and start the day, but it was pretty difficult with Jesper laying on me. It took me about ten minutes to actually leave the bedroom, trying not to wake him, and I headed straight to the kitchen to make some coffee. And just when I was finishing making it, I saw Jesper walking out of the bedroom.
"You can't just disappear like that without telling me," he spoke, looking at me a little offended.
"I'm sorry, am I a child now? I'm perfectly capable of getting out of bed by myself," I answered.
"You're not a child? Great, then we can talk like adults now," Jesper said, coming closer to me and snatching the coffee cup from my hands. He drank like half the cup of hot coffee and put it on the kitchen counter. "First of all, you need to step down," he said.
Okay. What? What the fuck? "Why?" I asked, frowning at him. "I already gave up neuro, I'm not quitting my job, Jesper," I said sternly. After all, I gave up neurosurgery so that I could focus on the chief stuff, things I was able to do.
"You're the chief Yohan, you need to get better. And while you do that, someone needs to take over. You won't be able to work," he spoke, giving me an annoyed look. "Fine, then you take over," I said right away, shrugging. "What?! I'm only thirty seven, I'm too young for this!" Jesper protested right away.
"I'm thirty seven too!" I reminded him.
"You're too young for this as well!" He practically screamed at me. Ah. Great. Did he just say that I was shit at doing my job? "Someone needs to take over, Yohan," he added after a minute.
"Yeah, someone I can trust," I nodded in agreement. I could be lenient towards the idea, if only someone normal would take over my work. "You're the best person for the position, Jes," I said confidently.
"I can't become the chief all of a sudden, Yohan," he said, looking at me like I was crazy. "Why not?" I decided to ask. "Because people are going to think we're playing fucking house at this hospital!" He yelled at me.
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