How are you my mum?

9. Safety?

Lucy-"can i?"
She requests to hug you
Olivia-"uhh"
Lucy-"i wont if you don't want me to"
Olivia-"can you please"
She puts an arm round you
You try to move but your bones just feel so weak and your stomach is in bits so you just make yourself a ball and fall asleep in Lucy's arms, this is the safest you have felt in years
Lucy-"you okay babygirl?"
No response
Lucy-"liv?"
She sees you asleep, you seem to be in a lot of pain
Lucy's pov-
Lucy-"shes so weak kei, i feel terrible, i dont know how to help"
Keira-"you cant luce, you just have to let her come to us"
Lucy-"ill carry her up"
I carry my daughter into mine and keira's bed
I lay her down but as soon as i let her go she starts screaming
Olivia-"no no im sorry i wont be late again im sorry, please dont"
Lucy-"hey babygirl wake up, your having a nightmare, liv wake up"
Olivia-"ah im sorry ah"
She starts throwing arms and legs
She hits you a couple times
Lucy-"olivia wake up please babygirl wake up"
She slowly starts waking up
Lucy-"shshshsh your okay ive got you"
Olivia-"im sorry i should go, you dont need me in your life, ill just ruin it"
Lucy-"no liv, i let you go once im not letting you go again"
Olivia-"thank you mum, i love you, ive never felt safe with anyone before"
Your heart melts at her calling you mum and saying i love you
Lucy-"oh babygirl i love you, i will always love you and i will help you now, ive got you now and im not going anywhere i promise"
Olivia-"can you stay with me please"
She holds onto your arm
Lucy-"of course i can babygirl, let me just message kei"
Olivia-"oh wait no im sorry,you shouldnt put your relationship on hold because of me, go with kei"
Lucy-"no its okay, kei will understand she will probably join us"
Olivia-"yay"
Lucy-"are you okay with having kei as your mama"
Olivia-"of course i am, i love you both already and ive never loved anyone before"
Lucy-"we love you more than you know"
You message your girlfriend
Lucy-
hey babe, liv woke up having a nightmare and asked me to stay with her, hope thats okay, and she said she loves you and said she loves having you as a mama
Keira-
okay lu ill be up soon, tell her i love her more than she knows and i love you to xx

You put your phone away and look down at your daughter who is once agsin asleep in your arms
Your heart breaks at how weak your daughter is, you feel so guilty
Olivia's pov-
You fall asleep once again in your mums arms, you feel so safe with her already
Keira's pov-
My heart fills as i walk up the stairs to see my girlfriend and my daughter cuddled asleep on the bed
I love them both so much
I take a photo of them, not to post anywhere as nobody knows about mine and lucy's relationship, let alone our daughter
I slowly and carefully slide into bed next to them, put my arms around them both and drift of to sleep
Olivia's pov-
I wake up in between my mums, i feel safe with them, safe like i never have before
I cant believe i have two amazing mums who care about me this much
I dont deserve them i know i dont, but i also know theres no getting rid of them now, and i love that, knowing that i will finally be okay, well i hope
All these thoughts filling my head, i make my way to the bathroom to look at my stomach, i relive everything what has happened and with that i find a small blade in their bathroom and start to cut
I hear them moving about so i cover my arm and put the blade back, i flush the toilet so it looks like i used the toilet
I come back out to find them snuggled on their bed
Olivia-"awww"
Lucy-"morning liv"
Olivia-"morning mum"
I know my mums heart melts everytime i call it her
Keira-"morning my babies"
Olivia-"morning mammy"
Keira-"aww i like that, come here"
She opens her arms
Keira-"you dont have to"
I slowly walk over to my mama and fall into her arms
Without realising ive fell asleep again but this time wrapped in my mamas arms