How are you my mum?

118. Always One Step Forward and Three Steps Back

Olivia's pov-
An hour has passed and i still haven't moved, neither has my mum, the girls have tried there best to comfort her but now have gone out in tje city, leah,rach,beth,alexia have all gone into the city,the house is silent only hearing momma move about cleaning. I sigh and turn my music higher, the tears start to fall. I see mum look up from her lap, her eyes are glistened her tears threatening to fall, she looks back to her lap not sure what to do, what i want.
Keira-"go to her lu"
Lucy-"but she won't want me" i look up at her with pleading eyes
Keira-"i think them eyes say different, i think your all she wants"
She gets up and sits next to me not getting to close to me
Olivia-"m..m..mum"
It hurts to speak
Lucy-"im here babygirl" i reach my fragile arms out to her and she soon carefully lifts me into her lap "im so sorry babygirl"
Olivia-"its not your fault mummy"
Lucy-"but it is"
I shake my head softly "no mummy, its not, its the security who let them in"
Lucy-"i guess"
Olivia-"poor auntie le le, this is all my fault"
Lucy-"like you just told me no it isnt"
Theres a crash from the kitchen and i jump
Lucy-"its ok babygirl, your okay"
Keira-"sorry just me, i erm dropped a glass"
Lucy-"how?"
Keira,"i erm, i d..d.dont know"
Olivia-"momma come here, its affected you to"
She sits down next to me
Keira-"thank you baba"
Olivia-"dont thank me, i just caused you a major problem"
Keira-"no baba" she carefully kisses my forehead
Olivia-"im gonna go to my room" they nod and i stand up slightly limping as the rope cut my ankle
I go up to my room and lie in my head all day running through my head, from getting grabbed, being trapped, being saved by leah again, seeing maya, everything. Im in so much pain, i need a wash, i get up and go to the bathroom looking at myself in the mirror, im full of cuts and bruises, all over me, this is going to kill, i get in the shower and it stings so much, the thoughts of cutting myself dont even cross my mind as im already covered in cuts and bruises. I go back to my bed and lie there in my dressing gown, i end up falling asleep, at least i think i was asleep. I wake up not long after, the girls are back so i go downstairs, mums are cuddled, steph and beth and next to each other and rach and Alexia are talking, no leah.
Alexia-"hey carino, how do you feel?"
Olivia-"im fine, wheres leah?"
Keira-"she went upstairs when they got back"
Olivia-"okay, ill do some detective skills" i go back upstairs and knock on the door of the rooms the girls are sleeping in, i hear sniffles
Leah-"c..come in"
Olivia-"hey auntie le le" i walk in and stand there awkwardly not knowing if she wants me to get close
Leah-"hey kid, sit down whats up"
Olivia-"i just wanted to say im sorry you had to save me again"
Leah-"no no no dont apologise kid"
Olivia-"yeah but i made you cry"
Leah-"its ok kid, im ok don't worry"
Olivia-"okay"
Leah-"how you doing?"
Olivia-"im fine, hows you and lia"
Leah-"erm well i mean i really really like her but i dont know about her"
Olivia-"okay give me until tomorrow and ill get back to you" i wink and leave her room heading back to mine, i really want my mum right now but i know shes busy with friends so im not disturbing her. I message lia walti on Instagram
Liawalti
Hi lia, its olivia here (bronze-walsh) you know my auntie le le?
Lia-
Hi liv if your on about the incredible leah Williamson then yes i do know your auntie le le
Olivia-
Yeah i am, i was just asking your ops on her
Lia-
Oh god your auntie le le is beautiful, shes smart, shes funny, i really like her but i know she doesnt
Olivia-
Youd be suprised lia😉

I lock my phone and go back to leahs room
Olivia-"hey leah, shoot your shot"
Leah-"really?"
Her eyes light up
Olivia-"yup we just spoke"
Leah-"thank you liv"
Olivia-"of course"
I close the door and go back to my room, checking the time 8.30pm i close my eyes and go to sleep, i feel two kisses to my forhead and cheek.
I wake up drenched it sweat it all running through my head, i cant help but scream, i need my mums
Olivia-"MUM MUM WHERE ARE YOU MUM! HES GETTING ME! MUM PLEASE WHERE ARE YOU! MUMMYYYYY!!" the doors swings open, she has fear in her eyes knowing im going back down again.
She runs over to me quickly getting into my bed next to me scooping me into her arms
Lucy-"oh babygirl, im here i promise, ive got you always, im here shshsh"
I instantly calm down in her arms and start crying all the tears falling.
Lucy-"oh babygirl, let it out, let it all out im here"
The tears eventually stop pouring
Lucy-"shshsh, im here babygirl"
Olivia-"m..m..mummy"
Lucy-"im here" i throw my arms around her and she carries me back to her bed "shshsh, im here babygirl" she lies both down and i fall asleep in her arms next to her and momma still clinged to her, i hear my phone buzz but i leave it until the morning.

AUTHORS NOTES-
I have had a question asked about publishing a new book, and tje answer is yes! I will be but it will be once i have finished this one, i have some ideas for it already! Also someone wanted an Olivia pov all the way through the chapter so here it is!
'Always one step forward and three steps back' Right?
Hope you enjoy
Wonze planning+Wedding=🔜