How are you my mum?

66. Lets Explore

Olivia's pov-
We wake up the next morning, we are rooming with the same people as at sgp, we are exploring the city today, theres not much around, there's a few shops, beach, parks but its nothing special. We go back to the hotel and natalie says "were going to have a fun training session as we have the time to kill"
Ivy-"what are we doin?"
Natalie-"were going to play a game"
A game? A..a..a game? I know theres football games but she didnt mean it like that, theres not footballs around,  i panic. What game could she possibly be on about? 1000 thoughts run through my head and i freeze. My chest tightens and i start shaking, my ears ringing. This shouldnt bother me, but it does, it really does.
Jess-"olivia are you ok?"
Olivia-"i..uh yeah"
Jess-"olivia sit down, you need to calm down, did you see something?"
I shake my head
Olivia-"h..h...heard something"
Jess-"what did you hear liv"
Olivia-"p..p..play a game"
Jess-"natalie, im just going to take liv inside a sec!"
Natalie-"everything ok?!"
Jess-"yeah two secs"
She takes me inside and sits me on a chair and sits next to me
Jess-"she doesnt mean anything bad i promise, she just means uh how do i put this, like a fun session? Is that ok?"
I nod
Olivia-"so like uh"
Jess-"like playing dodgeball or something"
Olivia-"o..ok"
Jess-"can you breathe slowly in and out for me"
Olivia-"ill try" i do it
Jess-"well done olivia, how do you feel?"
Olivia-"b..b..better thank you"
She wipes my tears with her thumb
Olivia-"thank you jess"
Jess-"anytime olivia, your an amazing player"
We go back outside and see people playing dodgeball
Jess-"told you, you know how to play?"
I look down and shake my head embarrassed
Jess-"hey dont be embarrassed not everyone does, all you have to do it avoid being hit with a ball, you can catch it and then throw it at other people"
I keep looking at the floor
Olivia-"i was never able to avoid being hit" i mumble luckily jess doesn't hear anything
Jess-"come on"
Natalie-"hiya girls, liv your on ivys team and jess your on millies, everything ok?"
I nod
I go over to ivy
Ivy-"you ok babe?"
I nod
Ivy-"duck!"
I quickly duck avoiding the ball
Ivy-"well done"
I grab a ball and throw it, it hits millie
Millie-"OLIVIA!" I panic not knowing if shes angry or something.
We finish the game and i speed off to my room not wanting interaction, today has not been a good day. 10 minutes later Millie walks through the door. My phone pings
📳Ella(u15s)-
Ella-
Hiya olivia, i just wanted to wish you luck for your games, i know you'll do amazing.
Olivia-
Thanks Ella

📳Mama❤️-
Keira-
Hey baba, i just wanted to see if your okay.
Olivia-
Hi mama, are you back at home now?
Mama-
Yes i am, your mum is helping me, ive got better are you ok?
Olivia-
No not really, ive had a panic attack because natalie mentioned playing a game, so my brain instead panicked, then i think i annoyed millie in dodgeball because i hit her and jess said avoid being hit by the ball so i mumbled 'i was never able to avoid being hit' but she didnt hear luckily and i really need you here mama, im
sorry i know you cant do anything.
Keira-
Oh baba, im sorry its this hard, it will get easier when your playing i promise, ill watch all your games to, i know the city girls are certainly missing you!
Olivia-
They are?
Keira-
Everyone is baba, we miss you just as much.
Olivia-
Ill put money on that you don't, im gonna try sleep if thats ok?
Keira-
Of course it is, let me know when you wake up ok baba, i love you
Olivia-
I love you to mama, im happy your home xx
Keira-
Xx

I lock my phone, putting it on dnd and then fall asleep. I hear the door open and close but i dont wake up.
I wake up 30 minutes later and see millie sat on the other bed.
Millie-"morning sleepy"
Olivia-"m..m..morning"
Millie-"why so nervous?"
Olivia-"i annoyed you in dodgeball so i thought you wouldve done something"
Millie-"of course not liv"
Olivia-"thanks mil"
Millie-"dinner is in an hour then it's free time"
Olivia-"what do we do then?"
Millie-"anything"
Olivia-"ok"
We go down for dinner and i eat a bit of food not wanting much but knowing the few teammates wouldn't let me go without. I have a small bowl of chips and get a worried look from ivy but i just shake my head disregarding it. After dinner i make my way back to my room not wanting any social interaction after the long day ive had. I decide to message the family gc.
📳Bronze-walsh's❤️-
Olivia-
Goodnight mum's i love you both so much xx
Lucy-
Are you ok babygirl your going to sleep quite early its only 8.30 xx
Olivia-
Yeah im fine just stressful day, ask mama she knows, now shes messaging me🙄xx
Keira-
What happened to messaging me when you were awake eh?Sorry baba ill let mum know sleep well we miss you, love you so much xx
Olivia-
Love you both more xx
Lucy-
Goodnight babygirl xx

And with that i lock my phone and close my eyes, hoping for a better day tomorrow.