How are you my mum?

109. Ugh i cant do it!

Olivia's pov-
Im two weeks into my physio now and it absolutely kills me everytime, i dont say anything because i dont want to be annoying, my pain meds arent working anymore i need something stronger, my physio is at 12 today when the seniors have training.
Lucy-"come on liv lets go!"
Olivia-"i dont want to"
Keira-"come on"
Lucy-"drink first"
Olivia-"no it doesnt even do anything anoymore"
Keira-"what?"
Olivia-"they dont even work, it kills"
Alexia-"it will chica" i huff and drink the useless water, i walk outside and wait by the car when mama comes out.
Keira-"whats wrong"
Olivia-"nothing"
Keira-"sure"
Olivia-"dont matter" the car unlocks so i get in and put my earphones in full blast taking me away from the conversation.
We arrive at the training centre and i get straight out the car heading in, i hear a couple of calls of my name but i ignore them and head to physio. I walk in and see her, she greets me with a soft smile.
Stevie-"hey olivia how are we doing today?"
Olivia-"fine"
Stevie-"olivia"
Olivia-"im fine man!"
Stevie-"okok bit touchy today thats okay...lets get started, today were going to do heel raises and some small knee bends"
Olivia-"k"
She gets the excercise sorted and i sit down to get started, i do about 5 knee bends when it starts  absolutely killing.
Olivia-"im done"
Stevie-"no come on keep going"
Olivia-"no i cant"
Stevie-"okay lets try-"
Olivia-"NO I CANT DO IT I CANT" I launch the tray into the wall and start punching.
Stevie-"hey calm down stop punching"
Olivia-"NO NO I CANT"
Stevie-"please calm down"
Olivia-"NO STOP TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN I WONT CALM DOWN, I CANT DO IT AND IT HURTS AND NO ONE CARES!" I throw something else across the room then start punching the wall again
Stevie-"im getting your mum" she runs out while i keep hitting the wall, by the time there back my knuckles are covered in blood but i still punching when two strong arms wrap around me and pull me away from the wall. I instantly know who it is and give up trying to get out. Mum.
Olivia-"NO LET ME GO MUM LET ME GO MUMMY LET ME GO!" No ive let her know im vulnerable god dammit.
Lucy-"babygirl you know i cant do tbat"
Olivia-"GET OFF GET OFF!" She holds me tight "MUMMY LET ME GO!"
Lucy-"shshsh breathe babygirl calm down"
Olivia-"NO I CANT I CANT DO IT!"
Lucy-"babygirl lets just sit down and calm down" she sits us down and i instantly wrap myself around her
Olivia-"i cant do it"
Lucy-"its okay babygirl" i start crying
Stevie-"you can go home today, come back tomorrow"
Lucy-"whats going on babygirl, lets talk to stevie"
Olivia-"it just hurts so much and i couldnt do it so i got angry, a..and my stupid meds dont work anymore" i choke out "a..a..and when i told you this morning you didn't seem to care"
Lucy-"oh babygirl im sorry i always care, i just thought it was because you didnt want to go" i shake my head
Olivia-"no it hurts mummy"
Lucy-"i know darling i know"
Stevie-"you can go home if you want ill contact the hospital about your meds" i nod
Olivia-"can i go mummy"
Lucy-"of course we can ill just let jonatan know"
Olivia-"wait no actually no, you have training"
Lucy-"i domt care"
Olivia-"but mu-"
Lucy-"no buts, ill tell keira to get someone to drop her and ale back and we will get you home"
I nod
She carries me to the car after talking with jonatan, by the time we get to the car im fast asleep in her chest but i hear fans shouting so i tense.
Lucy-"shsh its okay babygirl there just fans shshsh, close those eyes beautiful girl sweet dreams"
I relax after the shouting stops.
Lucy-"goodnight babygirl sweet dreams" i snuggle into her and she puts me in the car. She picks me up and carries me into the house when we get back, and lays me down on the sofa. She goes to move but i hold her arm.
Olivia-"stay please" she sits down and lifts me into her lap, and i soon close my eyes again.
Lucy's pov-
Once liv settles again i message keira telling her to ask someone to give her a lift.
Baby😍❤️-
Hey kei, could you ask someone to give you and ale a lift back please, liv had an outbourst at physio.
Keira-
Yeah course i will lu, see you soon just going to the gym i love you
Lucy-
I love you more kei kei

I put my phone down and hear trots coming through the house, its narla with her ball. I throw it for her before liv starts stirring.
Olivia-"mummy"
Lucy-"im here, im here"
She smiles and moves to put her head on my chest.
Lucy-"how do you feel?"
Olivia-"im ok, im sorry for getting angry and pulling you out of training"
Lucy-"its okay, dont worry"
Olivia-"yeah b-"
Lucy-"no, its okay, you will always be more than training"
Olivia-"okay, mum" she looks up
Lucy-"yeah?"
Olivia-"thank you, for s..s..saving me"
I tear up
Lucy-"oh babygirl don't ever thank me, i should never of put you tjere in the first place"
Olivia-"but you never knew this would happen and then you know, you found me and got me out, and then you loved me like ive never been loved and so did mama so thank you"
I nod and hug her tight
Lucy-"i love you so much liv"
Olivia-"i love you more mum"
Lucy-"never"
Olivia-"you know i always thought it was coincidence that we had the same name, i didnt actually think youd be my mum"
Lucy-"i didnt think id ever see you again, when i let you go, it broke me at the time my whole family hated me said i made a awful choice to keep the baby so i gave you up and it really broke me and i..i..i didnt think id ever see you again"
Olivia-"im here now mum"
Lucy-"yeah, and your never going again"
Olivia-"yeah"
Lucy-"anyway its coming upto four months right"
Olivia-"erm yeah i think so"
Luvy-"we need to start planning, im already shitting myself"
Olivia-"why are you telling me?"
Lucy-"because your helping me" she almost chokes on her drink "what?"
Olivia-"i cant help you with your most important day of your life!"
Lucy-"of course you can"
Olivia-"right ok first things first, what country"
Lucy-"england, me and kei already discussed that"
Olivia-"right so what do you need me to do?"
Lucy-"just helpp meeee"
Olivia-"with what"
Lucy-"well i dont know i didnt get that far"
Olivia-"your so annoying"
I smirk
Lucy-"i know"
I smile
Olivia-"pretty mumsie"
Lucy-"oh shush"
The door opens
Keira-"hi my babies"
Olivia-"mama!" She goes to get up but i hold her knowing she wants to run
Lucy-"dont even think about it"
Olivia-"ugh"
Keira-"ill come to you" she comes over and hugs us both kissing me.
Lucy-"how was training"
Alexia-"va ser bo, una mica dur, molt cansat" it was good, bit hard, really tiring
Lucy-"ya what"
Olivia-"it was good something, really tiring"
Keira-"since when did you get spanish"(or catalan not really sure on there dominant language)
Olivia-"since ale teaches me"
Keira-"oh right you are"
Alexia-"did you need to talk to me kei?"
Keira-"oh no its ok, just about what i told you in the car"
Alexia-"oh si si"
I raise an eyebrow
Keira-"dont raise that eyebrow at me misses"
I smirk
She laughs and sits next to me
Keira-"i love you love"
Lucy-"i love you mkre future wife"
Olivia-"bit tomatoey there mama"
Keira-"oh shush"
She smirks
AUTHORS NOTES-(mostly on the game yesterday)
I did start this yesterday and wanted to get it out yesterday but you know,
I think the girls played well yesterday, controlled the game, ill be honest i think there is a major gap in the midfield without keira and i think it can be seen as when she came on there was much more control in the middle, i also think without millie and lucy on the pitch there is a major gap in defence on set peices as seen from there two goals, the marking was poor and also the 'want' to get uo there to clear it wasnt there, maya played well yesterday but i definitely think she sits better in centre back and she drifts slightly inwards. Sarina played an experimental team but i dont think the opposition was a good team to test it out on as Austria werent really a threat. Manu makes me absolutely cackle, shes absolutely awful. BUT! MAIN TALKING POINT OF YESTERDAYS GAME. CAPTAIN KEIRA FAE WALSH! She became captain when she came on im so proud of her❤️. But yes good first game of 2024 onto tuesday! Have a nice evening🤍