How are you my mum?

112.

(I dont know a chapter title for this one sooo)
Olivia's pov-
I wake up the next morning snuggled in between my mum's. I kiss mums cheek to wake her up.
Lucy-"hm?"
Olivia-"morning its 9am and youse need breakfast"
Lucy-"so do you"
Olivia-"im good"
Lucy-"olivia, ive just woken up, im getting dressed wake your mama up, im not arguing with you over if your eating or not"
Olivia-"ok jesus" i shake mama
Keira-"oh hey baba"
Olivia-"hi its 9am youse need breakfast and oh mums in a real bad mood"
Lucy-"im not, im just not arguing with you at 9 o clock in the morning about if your eating or not"
Olivia-"fine then i wont"
I get up and walk out the door hoping some other girls are here, im walking through the corridors not watching and bump into rach.
Rach-"hey mini bronze-walsh where are you of to in such a rush"
Olivia-"oh hey rach im sorry i didn't mean to bash into you"
Rach-"its okay where are you of to?"
Olivia-"no where really trying to find some of the girls i dont wanna be with my mum right now"
Rach-"come here, im off to mine and less's room" i follow rach to her room. We get to her room and she opens the door i sit on the bed looking at the floor. Lessi isnt here yet
Rach-"right then whats going on?"
Olivia-"wheres lessi?"
Rach-"shes coming with the arsenal girls she wont be long"
Olivia-"k"
Rach-"whats happened"
Olivia-"right i woke her up and i was really nice to her and i kissed her on the cheek and i said to her its 9am and youse need breakfast so she goes ok so do you so i say no im good and she goes ok wake your mama up im not arguing with you at 9 o clock in the morning about if your eating or not so i turn around cuz i was in the middle of them so i wake mama up and i tell her the time and mums in a mood so mum says no im not im just not arguing with you at 9 o clock in the morning about if your eating or not so i say back fine then i wont and i walk out and now im here"
Rach-"right so it sounds like your mum woke up on the wrong side of the bed and you got to her a bit wkth your eating and it annyoed you"
Olivia-"so its my fault"
Rach-"no i didnt say that"
Olivia-"basically did"
Rach-"dont even start with me"
Olivia-"ok, whens the arsenal girls getting here?"
Rach-"i dont know am i not good enough for you"
Olivia-"no you are"
Rach-"liv, whats going on, your not like this to me"
I sigh
Olivia-"i keep having nightmares again and i dont know why so i tried sleeping with my mums but it didnt help cuz they didnt exactly hug me like they used to and i had another one and then mum got mad and whenever i tell them i feel like such a beg and attention seeker so i just keep it in and then they get nad a..a..and i f..e..feel like t..t..there f..f..forgetting about me n..n..now i..v..ve been with t..t..them a while"
Rach-"oh liv, they are not forgetting about you i promise you ill even talk to them for you if youd like? You are not and never will be a beg or attention seeker, you have serious trauma and that needs constant attention and help thats it,your mums love you liv thats why they get angry"
I nod knowing shes right
"Come here" i crawl into her lap where she cradles me and lessi walks in
Lessi-"hey ba- hey liv?"
Olivia-"lessiiii" i shoot up and hug her
Lessi-"hey how come your here?"
Olivia-"oh rach will tell you" she picks me up and sits on the bed
Rach-"so liv is here beca-"
Olivia-"oh and i also dont like barcelona anymore"
They both turn there heads to me
Olivia-"whoops i wasnt meant to say that"
Rach-"why liv?"
Olivia-"because i cant see youse basically ever, i cant play or do anything im bored out my brain and then all my thoughts get to me"
Rach-"you know we are just a phone call away"
Olivia-"i know"
Rach tells lessi what happend
Lessi-"do you think you should talk to her?"
Olivia-"no, i want to see auntie le le and beffy"
Lessi-"okay come on"
Lessi takes me to leah and beth
Olivia-"leeeeeeeee beffy"
I hug them
Leah-"hey you"
Beth-"getting on ok?"
Olivia-"erm sure"
Leah-"okay well weve got to go unpack okay?"
Olivia-"okay"
Beth-"oh your mum is looking for you"
I nod and say bye
Lessi-"happy now?"
Olivia-"no im not going back"
Lessi-"come on"
Olivia-"no im walking around"
Lessi-"liv"
I walk off fast, she follows me but i lose her behind a wall, i dont want to talk to people right now, i slide down the wall and punch it on the way down and the tears start falling, i pick up my phone, i reach the contact names-
Mama❤️
Stephy🤍
Miniiii🚐
I decide to call Stephy on facetime knowing shes with the matildas.
Steph(Catley)-"heyyy" she says through her aussie accent
Olivia-"hey" she notices my tear stained face
Steph-"whats up?"
Olivia-"nothing im ok"
She raises an eyebrow which causes me to laugh because she cant do it properly
Steph-"there we go, how come you called arent you with the senior girls?"
Olivia-"yeah i, i just wanted to call someone else" i sigh "i hate barca steph i hate it, i feel so lonely without any of you there, i feel like my mums are forgetting about me, i cant play and i just want to come back but i cant tell them this a..a..and im falling back steph and i have no one, a..a..and im falling back into that place i cant get out of" i fall into loud sobs
Steph-"oh liv.. two secs girls ill be back"
She leaves the room
"Have you told anyone this?"
I shake my head still loudly sobbing
"Not even rach?" I shake my head "you need to liv, you know theres not a lot i can do, you know that" i nod
Olivia-"but i have no one to tell"
Steph-"of course you do" theres shouting in the background "im sorry liv ive got to go tonys calling us please tell someone"
Olivia-"mhm bye aunty Stephy"
Steph-"bye you" she blows me a kiss and hangs up
I sigh
Keira's pov-
Im looking around for liv when i hear loud sobs coming from around the corner,i poke my head round to see liv on a facetime calling, the tears streaming down her face, all i want to do right now is rush and grab her in my arms but i decide to listen to the conversation, oh god this is horrible, i cant believe she feels like this, shes talking to....Steph Catley, oh bless Steph always making time for her, anyway, i cant believe this, from what Rach said to this? Shes keeping all this bottled up because were not treating her right,'forgetting about her' i feel awful, my poor baby, instead of rushing to her i decide to go back to Lucy and tell her, i get back to our room and find lucy lay on the bed.
Lucy-"anything" i nod sadly
I tell her everything i heard and she turns into a ghost
Lucy-"our baby"
Keira-"i know"
Lucy-"w..where is she?"
Keira-"i dont know she was on the phone to Steph, catley but you cant tell her you know what shes feeling lu"
Lucy-"i know let her come to us i knoww"
Keira-"okay"
The door opens and liv walks in
Keira-"liv.. where have you been?"
Olivia-"i uhm i need to talk to you" she tells us everything
Keira-"oh liv, why didnt you say anything baba" she starts crying again so i move the hair out of her face
Olivia-"because you forgot about me do i didnt think youd care"
Lucy-"we will always care babygirl, your our baby, im sorry for this morning i really just care about you thats all"
Olivia-"im sorry, for everything"
Lucy-"come give me hugs, we will never forget about you...never ever"
She nods
Olivia-"im sorry"
Keira-"its okay, stop apologising, your telling your feelings, thats okay"
She nods
Keira-"we love you so much"
Olivia-"i love you to mums"
My phone pings
Steph💛💚-
Hey keira, has liv spoken to you, shes not in the greatest place?
Keira-
Yeah she has thank you Steph you mean so much to her xx

Its now 11am.
AUTHORS NOTES-
Really do apologise for the soppy part, couldnt think of any 'drama' to add but i do like a good drama part.
Do not appreciate Spain winning the Nations league for the first time especially when that should definitely of been England. So happy the tillies are in the Olympics though💚💛
Have a nice night🤍