How are you my mum?

26. Out for food

Olivia's pov-
We go to sleep when we get back
The next day
Mama's phone goes off
Keira-"hey liv, leah invited us out for food with katie, beth,viv,lessi and your mum of course"
Olivia-"food?" I get nervous and tense up
Keira-"i know you havent had much with us but i am so proud of how much you have had just with us, you can have as much or as little as you want"
Olivia-"ive never been out for food before what if they tell me i cant have anything"
Keira-"of course they won't"
Olivia-"but mama i cant do it"
Keira-"hey baba you will be okay, me, mum and all the othere will be there"
Olivia-"thats the point mama the rest will be there"
I storm off to the bathroom
I start to cry
I have my nails against my arm and my mums hid all the blades
I hear a slight knock on the door
Lucy-"hey babygirl its me can i come in"
Olivia-"no mum"
Lucy-please babygirl, mama is really sorry for pushing you and she understands if you dont want to go"
I open the door
Olivia-"m..m..um" i collapse into her arms
Lucy-"its okay babygirl"
She hugs me tight
Olivia-"i want to go mum but what if they judge me"
Lucy-"this is leah Williamson, lessi russo, katie mccabe, beth mead and Vivianne Miedema were talking about liv"
Olivia-"i know i know"
Lucy-"shall we speak to mama"
Olivia-"o..ok"
Lucy-"show me your arms first"
She blocks the door with her arm
Olivia-"i didnt do anything, you knocked before i did"
Lucy-"ok lets go"
I go back to mama
Olivia-"m..mm..mama i want to go im just scared of being judged"
Keira-"its okay baba, its down in london so we shall leave at 12 get there for 2"
Olivia-"okay
Skip to London
Keira-"ready?"
Olivia-"yeah"
We walk into the restaurant
Leah-"HEY YOU AGAIN"
She hugs me
Leah-"ive missed you"
Katie-"OLIVIAAAAA"
Olivia-"hey katie"
Alessia walks over
I automatically get nervous and tense
Alessia-"hey"
Olivia-"h..h..hi less"
Alessia-"you coming in"
Keira-"yeah come on"
We sit down
I order just plain chips
Im slowly eating them as i start to feel sick
I slowly lean on my mum letting her know i want to talk to her
Lucy-"yeah babygirl" she whispers to me
Olivia-"i dont want anymore"
She looks in my bowl
Lucy-"thats okay babygirl youve done well"
Olivia-"are you sure mum"
Lucy-"of course babygirl"
I stay leant on her, nervous to move
Lessi leans over to my ear so no one hears
Alessia-"are you done?" She cautiously asks
Olivia-"i..i uh i yeah"
Alessia-"hey liv thats okay, youve ate a lot, im proud of you"
Olivia-"wait your not judging me"
Alessia-"of course im not"
Olivia-"thanks lessi"
With lessi's words i sit up off my mum
The night comes to an end and me and my mums head back to Manchester for some needed sleep
Its been a busy 2 days
And tomorrow
My mums have training
Great
As much as i know im far to weak to play and far to bad i wish i could play again
Not necessarily in a team just you know play
Hopefully sometime i will
I fall asleep to my thoughts
Mum carries me from the car to their room and they both get into bed around me