How are you my mum?

17. Dont I know you-Part 2

Olivia-"uhh,mum, mama you can go with your friends i just need to speak to alessia"
Lucy-"okay baby"
They leave
You pull alessia to a side
Olivia-"yes alessia you do know me, uh, your the one who saved me from that cliff when i wanted to commit suicide, your the one who caught me when i jumped"
Alessia-"oh olivia im so sorry, uh do you still feel like that now?"
Olivia-"oh uh i uh"
I freeze not knowing what to say, so instead of answering i run out the closest door i see and keep running
I hear Alessia call my name as i run but keep running
I stop running, i find myself hid behind the piches sat down, i sit and have a panic attack
Flashback
2021
Im 12 now starting to fully understand what is happening to me, i dont want to be alive anymore, i cant take anymore pain
I wonder where my real parents are why they give me up
I sneak out the house and run to the cliffs
I sit on the cliffs for about 2 hours coming up with a pros and cons list of me jumping
I find no cons so after about 10-15 minutes of contemplating whether to or not
I slide myself to the edge, put my feet somewhere ateady where I can jump, and 1,2,3 i jump
I was so happy, it was all over, the pain was finally over.
Until it wasnt
I was caught, in the moment i couldnt tell you who by i just know i was caught
I looked up at the cliff to see who caught me. It was the one and only. Manchester United striker. Alessia Russo.
I was so shocked why would she catch me
Alessia's pov-
Im walking along the Manchester cliffs, not to do anything, just breathe the fresh air in
Im taking my peaceful walk when i see a girl sat at the edge of the cliffs, quickening my walk as i watch
5,4,3,2,1 she jumps
My 'mother' insticts kick in
I sprint towards her and grab her arm
Alessia-"its ok kid ive got you"
Olivia-"no let me go please"
Alessia-"i cant do that come on"
I pull the girl up
Alessia-"im alessia"
Olivia-"i know, im Olivia"
Alessia-"do you want to talk?"
Olivia-"no, ill just go home"
Alessia-"you sure?"
Olivia-"yes, you can watch me if you really want"
Alessia-"thank you"
I take Olivia home, really worried about her but i know there nothing i can do
Back to present-
Alessia's pov-
I try to call Olivia back but she just runs
I panic
I decide to look for her myself until i realise its been a while since weve been gone
I find Lucy
Alessia-"LUCY LUCY!"
Lucy-"Alessia? Whats up?"
Alessia-"i need to talk to you"
Lucy-"speak alessia"
Alessia-"its Olivia, when she pulled me to aside, we was speaking about something, i wish i could tell you but i cant go against her trust and uh she run away"
Lucy-"WHERE ALESSIA"
Alessia-"i dont know she just ran"
Lucy-"thank you alessia, for telling me"
Alessia-"lets find her"
Me and Lucy run everywhere we know about SGP
Lucy's pov-
Me and Alessia are running around SGP until i remember she once told me, she loves to sit on a pitch whenever she needs to clear her head
Lucy-"ALESSIA THE PITCHES"
I sprint to the pitches and find my daughter in a ball of herself
Lucy-"babygirl?"
Olivia-"no mum, leave me alone"
Lucy-"you see if i would, i wouldnt care about you so i cant do that"
Olivia-"mum please"
Lucy-"no olivia, i also have someone else here who wants to talk to you"
Olivia-"if its alessia then please no"
Lucy-"why not babygirl"
Olivia-"because mum, she saw something and stopped me doing that thing and i dont want to talk to her"
Alessia-"i am so proud of you Olivia"
Olivia-"you shouldve let me"
Alessia-"i couldnt do that"
Olivia-"yes you could"
I was confused with what Alessia and Olivia were on about
I realises i didnt tell my girlfriend where we were so i message her
Lucy-
Hiya babe, were done at the end of the pitches explain when you get here
Keira-
Ok babe im on my way
I keep listening to Lessi's and Olivia's conversation
I was really confused but felt it was best if i didnt ask
Olivia-"you should of let die there and then"
Alessia-"no olivia i couldnt let you do that, im so proud of you for still being here, these years later"
Olivia then turns to my concerned face
Olivia-"mum im sorry for not telling you but i uhm"
Alessia-"take your time liv"
Olivia-"okay lessi, mum i uhm i tried go commit suicide when i was 12, everything got to bad and i couldnt take anymore pain so i tried to i uhm i nearly succeeded because i did jump but Alessia then caught me and thats why i panicked when i saw her and i ran because she asked if i still feel like it and i didnt answer so i ran out here had a panic attack and then had a flashback of it and started having a meltdown"
I feel tears in my eyes grow as my daughter just told me that she wanted to kill herself, i feel absolutely awful, this is all my fault
Olivia-"and before you say its your fault, no it isnt mum,you werent to know that wouldve happened"
I love that she gives me that bit of reassurance
Lucy-"i am so sorry babygirl, i love you so much, i really do hope you dont feel like that anymore"
Olivia-"i love you to mum, and uh i dont really anymore, when i found you and you were my mum the thoughts, they went away as i knew i was safe but they come and go in periods but i dont fell like i would ever do it now"
My heart melts as my daughter just said she loves me
Lucy-"come here"
I open my arms as it sit down next to her as she lies in them
I turn my attention to Alessia
Lucy-"thank you. Alessia."
Alessia-"of course Lucy ill leave you to it but i want youse to know im always here"
Olivia-"thank you alessia im sorry for running off i just got scared and please don't tell anyone"
Alessia-"never have, never will"
Alessia leaves
Its now me and my daughter, my daughter quietly crying
Lucy-"im so proud of you babygirl, you dont have to hide your tears from me"
A few minutes later my girlfriend comes running down to us
Keira-"are we okay" she concernly asks
Olivia-"can you tell her"
I tell my girlfriend everything my daughter told me
She tears up
Olivia-"dont cry mama, the thoughts are almost gone now, they come and go in periods"
Keira-"im just worried kiddo"
We all sit there for a while longer all cuddled together