How are you my mum?

64. Start of Euros Camp

Olivia's pov-
I wake up the next morning after finally running out of tears, i make my way downstairs with millie to get breakfast, as much as i didnt want to eat she made sure i did. We make our way down to the table seeing a few girls on the way. We sit at a table with ivy and a few other girls not yet being introduced. The coach, natalie Henderson then walks in and starts speaking. "Morning girls, im natalie, i know yesterday was rough for a few of you, we have a meeting today to get to know everyone, 1 hour training and then 30 minutes gym any questions?"
No one speaks
Natalie-"ill see you in the meeting room in 5 thank you girls"
We eat our breakfast and i make my way to the meeting room with millie and Ivy, im hiding all my emotions right now as everywhere i go there is senior team pictures, all of them with either my mum or mama in.
I take a deep breath and walk in
Natalie-"morning everyone, i hope we are all well, we will go round introducing everyone"
We go round the room and i try and learn as many names as possible, most are older than me and ivy but thats ok.
Natalie-"right girls you have an hour intil training so you can do whatever its your choice just be at pitches"
We all nod and go back our own ways.
I go to my room and sit on the bed holding back floods of tears threatening to fall. I open my phone to see messages. One from mum, one from chloe.
📳Mummy💕-
Lucy-
Morning babygirl hope your better than yesterday enjoy your day, talk when you can, i love you lots❤️❤️xx
Olivia-
Morning mum, im not in the slightest better really, im hiding my emotions, tears threatening to fall, ill try enjoy it i guess, i love your more mum xx i miss you😢xx

📳Ckkkkkk-
Chloe-
What did i tell you eh? Your mum's arent speaking to anyone, looking like theyve no sleep, i knew i was right liv.
Olivia-
Not much diff from me then

I lock my phone and head to pitches after wiping away the few tears that fell
I head to the pitches and im one of the first there, i pick up a ball and start passing it against the fence.
Natalie-"hey olivia, are you ok, sarina spoke to me" i nod and carry on not wanting to let her know my emotions.
Natalie-"im here if you want to talk liv, this is hard for you"
Tears flood my eyes, clearing my vision
Natalie-"dont cry liv, not yet, there coming, be at my office after gym"
Olivia-"o..o..okay"
Training starts up quickly with different drills happening for different positions.
My drill is dribbling round the cones and tires, comtrolling a ball from the air and then shooting against the keeper.
I score all my goals, controlling every ball not knocking over one cone, all my thoughts leave my head when im on the pitch.
Natalie-"well done olivia you did brilliantly, thats it for todsy girls, we will fly out to estonia in 2 days, so training tomorrow and flying out the next, head to the gym and start your exercise"
We all go to the gym, i start on the boxing then go to the treadmill, after gym i head to natalies office.
I knock on the door and wait for the response
Natalie-"come in"
I walk in and see natalie and sarina both in the office
Natalie-"hiya olivia, i just wanted to check on you, so i asked sarina to be here as i know she knows you?"
I nod
Sarina-"liv look at me"
I turn to her she holds my hands
Sarina-"i know your not okay, and i also know your mum's arent ok"
Olivia-"what are you saying?"
Sarina-"we want you to know, that we are both here for you whenever you need"
Olivia-"can i have a hug?"
She bends down and hugs me, then all my tears start falling.
Natalie-"olivia, come here sarina needs to get back to work, i need to know my own players arent ok dont i?" She says with a laugh
I sit on the chair next to her
Natalie-"missing your mum?"
I nod and shake  my head
Natalie-"your dad" i violently shake my head and tense up at that word, she moves her arm and i flinch
Olivia-"sorry"
Natalie-"its ok, why are you crying if you dont miss them?"
Olivia-"think of my name, natalie" i say coldly "sorry its just, i miss them"
Natalie-"your name?"
Olivia-"bronze-walsh"
Natalie-"of course you are! I forgot about your last name im so sorry" she raises her hand to put on my head and i flinch and duck away
Olivia-"i..i..i im sorry, y..y..you mentioned d..d..d..d..dad" my breathing quickens and i cant get words out
Olivia-"i..i..best b..b...b..be off" i quickly leave her office and run to my room my panic attacks getting worse
I grab my phone and message my family gc
📳bronze-walsh's❤️-
Olivia-
I cant breathe
Lucy-
Why babygirl what happened
Olivia-
Natalie mentioned the word 'dad'
Keira-
Baba are you with anyone?
Olivia-
Millie
Lucy-
Give her the phone and tell her to call us

I give my phone to millie telling her to call my mum's
📞Lucy-"millie?"
Millie-"yeah its me, lucy im really scared i tried to help her but i didnt kniw what to do"
Keira-"its ok mil just follow my instructions"
She tells millie what to do and she does it but it doesnt work
I hear her muttering to lucy
Keira-"if she doesnt stop its gonna end like yours luce"
Lucy-"i know but theres nothing for us we can do, and if it does it will end in a nightmare"
Keira-"fuck!" I hear her shout
Millie-"keira what do i do shes getting worse"
Keira-"is she cuddled into you yeah?"
Millie-"yeah"
Lucy-"IVY! Get ivy, shes helped her through one before"
Keira-"yes lucy! Well done, millie i need you to run and get ivy for us, leave olivias phone there leave olivia on the floor in case and get ivy now!" She runs away and seconds later ivys bursting through the door
Ivy-"olivia, babe im here"
She quickly cradles me
Ivy-"im here shshsh, i know im not as good as your mums but im the best youve got shshsh" she strokes my head and my breathing slows down
Ivy-"what cause this babe"
Olivia-"natalie mentioned dad"
Ivy-"wheres your phone?"
I give it her
Ivy-"hiya lucy and keira i think shes ok now, her breathings slowed down, shes saying it was caused by natalie saying dad"
Lucy-"yeah it will of been thanks ivy"
She takes my phone out the room to talk
Ivy's pov-
Ivy-"shes breaking more and more lucy"
Lucy-"i know, i know, i wish we could do something"
Ivy-"me to, i hate seeing her like this"
Lucy-"i hate hearing her like this"
Ivy-"ivd got to go now for dinner bye  lucy"
Lucy-"make sure she eats something for me iv"
Ivy-"course i will lucy, bye guys
Keira-"bye ivy thank you so much, give olivia her phone back please"
Olivia's pov-
She returns with my phone my mum's still on the phone
Keira-"bye baba, you will be ok i promise, i love you so much"
Olivia-"i love youse more" i say through tears
I hang the phone up and go for dinner, millie and ivy both making me eat something.
Ivy takes me back upto the room as i was tired and millie wanted to stay downstairs so ivy brought me up, i tried telling her no but she picked me up in the end
Olivia-"thank you ivy, for helping me"
Ivy-"of course liv"
She puts me in my bed and lies with me while i fall asleep, that's the last thing i remember.
AUTHORS NOTES-
Imo im finding 1. Luna hard to believe Because if lucy and ona are together, keira wouldn't talk to ona like she does bc you arent gonna talk to ur exs gf and 2. I also believe kaura are friends due to there pictures being mostly friendly tbh because if you are to look at other photos of keira and laura with other people they are both cuddly people so theres that. Either wonze is very private and now are going with other people to seem like they arent together or they are falling apart and that fully breaks my heart, wonze always and forever.❤️ hope ypu enjoy the chapter!