End Game

Miss americana and the heartbreak prince

Miss americana and the heartbreak prince- Taylor Swift

Lizzie's POV.

The next morning I arrive and with it a Valentina with a pretty bad mood, I guess I am going to have to start living with the mood swings she is going to have in this whole grieving process.

"Do you want me to make you breakfast?" I asked sitting next to her on the couch in her living room.
"I really don't give a fuck" she says.
Take a deep breath, I know she doesn't mean to hurt me so I'm trying to put my best face on this situation.
"Are you hungry?" I ask her.
"No" she says as she slides her finger across the screen of her phone.

I get up from the couch and go to the kitchen to make breakfast, I know she will eat it even though she said she wasn't hungry, I know what she is doing, she is punishing herself by not eating.

She didn't seem to want me here and earlier before I joined her on the couch as we were walking down the stairs I asked her if she wanted me to leave to which she replied with a simple no.

I started making our breakfast, I just want to make her feel a little better but I don't know how, I know that no words or anything I do is going to make the pain she feels go away.

I was plating the food on the plates when I heard her walk in the kitchen door.

"I told you I wasn't hungry" she says with her arms folded across her chest.
"I know that you are hungry and I won't let you punish yourself, so you're going to eat breakfast" I said handing her her plate.

She didn't argue further, accepted the plate and walked silently to the dining room table.

"I'm sorry" she whispered.
"It's okay."
"It's just that there are days when it's harder everything" she says leaning her head on her hand tilting it a little so she can see me.
"Don't worry, I won't leave your side no matter how hard it is" I reassured her and watched her body relax.
"I like it when you stay home" she put her free hand on mine.
"I like it here" I gave her a smile which she returned.

We had breakfast and she seemed to feel better.

"Can we go in the pool?" She asks.
"Sure."

She let me wear whatever I needed to get in her pool, after we changed clothes we walked down to the pool.

She went in her feet first feeling the coldness of the water, her shoulders that were tense went down, she took a deep breath and went down the first step feeling the water go up her body.

"What are you waiting for Lizzie? Come in with me" she says with a giggle.
"I'm coming" I said with a giggle as well.

The water was cold but cold enough, she went all the way into the pool and I followed her.

"Oh this feels nice" she says referring to the water on her body.
"Yeah" I said admiring her.
"So how are things going with Boyd?" She asks
"We broke up that night" I let her know.
"Oh sorry"
"Don't be, we should never have been together, he's not the one I love" I said as I watched her slowly move closer to me.

"well it still feels shitty that things ended up like this" she says close to me but not close enough for our bodies to touch.
"Yeah, but I guess I deserve it I did things wrong".
"Have you talked to him since then?" She asks.
"Nope, he doesn't want anything to do with me obviously, and I don't want to talk to him either" I tell her honestly.
"Okay, I get it I guess"
"What about you and Shawn? If you don't mind me asking, you don't have to answer if you don't want to" I said rambling.
"Shawn has been there for me through this whole painful process, I thought after everything he and I would still be friends but I guess he didn't think so he wanted us to get back together, at first he kept insisting that we get back together but I always turned him down, eventually he stopped insisting so I thought he was over it but after what happened last night it's clear to me that he's not" she says calmly.
"Why didn't you want to go back to him?" I said wanting to know more.
"I don't trust him anymore after what I saw, it was something that made me not see him or think the same about him anymore" she says and that made me think that maybe she thinks the same about me and that terrifies me "besides I don't think I loved him enough or if I ever really loved him, I know I care about him but it's not the same as loving".

I nodded and swallowed hard my fear that she thought the same about me, the only way to know is to ask her.

"You don't trust me either?"
"It's strange because I do" she says with a small smile. "after everything that's happened I still trust you."

Hearing that made me want to cry, after all the pain I have caused her yet she still trusts me.

"Can I hug you?" I asked her.

She looked into my eyes and nodded opening her arms for me to hug her, I moved closer to her and grabbed her waist closing the space between our bodies, her arms wrapped around my neck as if they had always belonged there, she let out a sigh that melted me.

"I love that you're still wearing the necklace" she whispers in my ear.
"I thought you hated it" I whispered back.
"I know it seemed that way but I didn't" she said with a giggle.
"I love being with you" I let my thought out.
She moved back slightly to look me in the eyes.
"Your eyes are so beautiful, did you know that?" She asks making me blush, she still has that effect on me.
"That's very sweet" I tell her.

She came up to me again giving me a kiss on my cheek and hugged me again, we were like that for a long time until our bodies got cold.

We got out of the pool and put on our robes, we ate the lunch that Valen's chefs had made for us, she had a smile on her face that made it all worth it. Now we are at her bedroom.

"Lizzie is it okay if you go back to your place tonight?" She asked me and that broke my heart, I think she noticed it on my face because she started talking again "it's just that I need space for me".
"Yes, don't worry" I said trying not to show sadness.
"Look Lizzie, I really appreciate your presence here next to me I really do, but I feel that my mood swings may affect you and I don't want to do that, so it's better if you go to your place tonight and tomorrow we'll see each other, what do you think?"
"If that's what you want, that's fine" I said giving her a half smile.
"Okaaay, can you give me a hug now and watch movies with me?" She says pouting, ugh God how I wish I could kiss her right now.

I held her in my arms while we watched the little mermaid, we also watched Hercules and the lion king because they are Valen's favorite Disney movies, we were still in our robes, both of us too lazy to stand up from the bed and change our clothes, I was stroking her hair while she aunt my waist trapped with her arm.

She raised her head slightly to look at me, with her finger she began to trace imaginary lines across my face softly.

"Thank you for being here" she says in her sweet voice.
"Sure, that's what friends are for" ha takes that back valen.
"Yeah, you're right" valen says taking her hand off my face and removing herself from my embrace.

Is this part of her mood swings? Why did she pull out of my embrace and remove her hand from my face? I just returned what she said to me the other day. I am very confused.
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Hey thereeee you guys!!!!

I guess Lizzie's not the only one who's confused...