Twice One Shots

54. Too Many 'Ifs' (2yeon)

⚠️This features an FtM Jeongyeon! If you are not interested in that, please skip this!⚠️

"Okay, Mr. Yoo. Your levels look good. Remember to come back in two months to get your levels checked again." The doctor smiled and shook Jeongyeon's hand before he got up.

Jeongyeon got into his car, resting his head against the steering wheel. He took a deep breath, trying to not let his thoughts get the best of him, but it was hard. Being on testosterone for almost 6 months and still having difficulty seeing any changes was hard.

He took a deep breath and sat up, starting the car. He plugged his phone in and turned some music on, turning the volume all the way up to try and drown out his thoughts.

The music kept Jeongyeon's mind occupied for the 10 minutes it took to drive from his endocrinologist's office to his apartment, but once he turned the car off, that nagging sound of his thoughts quickly came back.

Jeongyeon let out a long sigh, got out of the car, and shut the door behind him. He headed punched in the code of his apartment and set the keys down in the dish by the door before taking his shoes off.

His whole body felt heavy. Wasn't he supposed to feel good after these appointments? It wasn't like his doctor had told him his levels were out of whack or anything.

Shaking his head, Jeongyeon slipped on his house shoes and shuffled to the kitchen. He grabbed a glass of water and sat down on the couch, turning the TV on. He flipped through the shows on Netflix before settling on one, not really caring what it was as long as it would take his mind off things.

//

Jeongyeon had been watching— more like staring at— the TV for about an hour before he heard the keypad on the front door. He laid his head back against the couch, putting a smile on as he saw Nayeon walk in.

Nayeon set her keys down in the dish, took her shoes off, and hung her jacket and purse up before she slipped her house shoes on. She smiled when she saw Jeongyeon on the couch and picked up her pace just a hair to sit beside him.

"I missed you," Nayeon said, kissing the side of Jeongyeon's head.

Jeongyeon chuckled and shook his head, kissing her forehead. "Bunny, we saw each other a few hours ago."

Nayeon pouted at sat back, resting her head on Jeongyeon's shoulder. "Maybe, but still missed you, dork."

Jeongyeon wrapped his arm around her shoulder, pulling her to his side. "I missed you too, beautiful."

With this, Nayeon tucked her face into his neck, a small blush forming on her cheeks. "Why do you always have to be so nice to me?"

Jeongyeon just shrugged and turned to kiss the crown of Nayeon's head. He turned his attention back to the TV to finish the episode of the show he wasn't really watching and held his girlfriend's hand.

//

"Baby, remember to do your shot." Nayeon called out from the kitchen and sat the last plate on the drying rack. From his spot at the dining table, Jeongyeon let out a groan and nodded.

"I'll be right back." Jeongyeon pushed his chair back and made his way into the bathroom. He pulled out the two needles he needed, a band-aid, alcohol wipes, and his bottle of testosterone.

Setting all the things he needed out to do his shot, Jeongyeon sat on the lid of the toilet. He easily went through the motions to get his shot ready. He wiped the spot on his leg off and uncapped the lid to his shot. Jeongyeon tapped on the barrel of the shot to get the air bubbles out, sighing as he held his thigh.