TURN OF FATE, cl16

10.

tw: mentions of panic attacks and depression.

CHAPTER TEN.
CHENNAI.

Dariyah immediately ran to the restroom and ignored the drunk girls vomiting and just opened the tap in the sink and splashed the water on her face.

Dariyah was confused why was she behaving this way, she just had a tiny crush on Shaan which went away after a while. Then it dawned on her that it wasn't about Shaan it was about her.

The world showed her again that she'd never be the one to the guys she felt she would be. She was like 17 when she met Shaan in a party. He was 3 years older than her, both of them felt attracted to each other the moment they met each others eyes.

Dariyah was in desperate need to move on from him. And Shaan came at the right moment, he was a great distraction for her to get her mind off of him. But Dariyah hated how she went back to him again after Shaan walked away just to get broken again.

She never really saw a future with Shaan but she did like him. She thought she could "fix" him. She knew he was a red flag from the start but she just needed distraction but now that he has found his person before her just made her upset.

She was again shown that she could never be the one to all the guys she had liked or loved. It was stupid but being unloved by a male figure your whole life would do that to you.

You'd always crave for male validation or attention. You'd want to be loved by them or just get noticed by them.

And Dariyah needed all of it. World was really cruel to her when she in her teenage. And she hate the fact that she still somewhat the same as then.

She didn't necessarily hate Shaan or anything, hell she had forgotten about him already. She just felt like she deserved to have found her person before him.

The person who had no interest in love or relationship found them and here, Dariyah had been waiting for years to experience the two, it just wasn't fair.

"You're a slut!"

"You don't deserve love!"

"You don't deserve to be happy!"

"I wish you had died!"

"You deserve all the bad things that has happened to you."

Dariyah closed her ears and eyes to stop the memories of her past haunting her. She started to breathe heavily, the world around her seemed to have become a blur as she struggled to breathe.

She wanted to call someone for help, but no voice seemed to come out of her mouth. She was pretty sure she was going to die out of exasperation.

She desperately tried to grab her bag, above her on the sink. She felt someone kneeling down before her.

Dariyah signalled them to open the bag, the person following suit. She put her hand through it and grabbed the bottle of pills.

The person understood what they had to do before grabbing the pills from her hand and opening them and giving her one pill.

Dariyah grabbed it and immediately swallowed the pill. Dariyah felt herself starting to breath slowly after a few painful seconds. Dariyah was still breathing heavily after her little breakdown.