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Aycie Locke

October 12th, London.

I'm trying to be more confident. Well I could say that about every single day of my life but today...

I'm trying to be more confident.

Confident as in...

You know?

Basically Niall has just about driven himself over the edge of insanity with the coming up a month tomorrow that we've not even done anything remotely sexual.

We made out and that's it, he's lost his shit and I'm finding that ever since the camping I've lost my shit too because I was desperate then and I got so overwhelmed I mixed up the word sex and s'mores.

Maybe if I didn't we'd both be satisfied right now but the torture has only gone on another week because of it.

And I'm at my wits end.

The apartment has been a great distraction and everything, the album is well underway and the band have been round pretty much 24/7 so me and Niall still haven't had much alone time.

Mainly became Harry's basically moved into the spare bedroom.

He literally has a toothbrush in our bathroom.

I'm okay with it became I know he misses Niall a lot, they came together at a bad time in both their lives and are like brothers to each other so Niall not living at the flat all the time apparently is distressing to him.

Niall understands and he has also expressed to me that he couldn't move out of the flat and we do plan to go back next week for a few days but the thing is is that the band are here so much it's not much different to how it was before.

They only ever leave when Niall tells them we're tired and have to go to sleep.

You should have heard the conversation I had to have with them when I said they couldn't stay tonight.

"I mean this in the nicest way possible, but I'm very busy tonight and have things to do in my apartment so we will have to continue the album tomorrow" I told them earlier in the day, "and you too Harry, I need you to sleep in you're flat for tonight, please."

The smirks plastering their faces, I can still see them and I'm wishing I aimed the gun better when I had the chance cause fuck me sideways...they could have been grown up about my request but I don't know why I'd ever expect that from them.

It started with the suggestive "oooohs" spreading throughout them and only growing louder, some of them laughing mischievously before Harry and Louis started making some very appropriate hand gestures. Harry with his fingers pointing into a v as he held them over his mouth, Louis using both hands to signify something even worse as one hand formed circle- you know what I don't want to think about it.

"Aycie wants to get laid" were the first words spoken by Liam in a single song voice who had a stupid grin on his face as he poked my arm continuously when my face went a deep, embarrassing red, "naughty naughty" he shook his head and tsk'd me.

"In the shower or the bed?" Harry asks a follow up question, "want me and Summer to join? Been thinking about that threesome, honestly Niall can go back to the flat" he opened his body language, his hands going over the backs of the sofa as he stretched his legs out.

This is the point that I found suitable to leave as I went to my bedroom and locked the door, telling them to just be gone, wishing I went around it a different way but I don't know how to ever get them out without having a good reason.