Here I am again
Back in this same old hole
Same feelings
Same emptiness
Here I am again
It comes so suddenly
Utterly unexpected
But it drags me down
Strips me bare
Till I am raw
Hurting
Broken
Hollow
Here I am again
Words stollen from me
Feelings and thoughts swirling in my mind
I wish I new what set it off
If there was something
But there isn't
Never has
It just happens
Out of nowhere
I wake up
Exhausted
Go about my day exhausted
Emotionally raw
Stripped of security
Strength
Confidence
Here it is
Loneliness
Darkness
You'd think I'd be better equipped
But I'm not
It always catches me off guard
And there isn't anything I can do but wait it out
Wait
Wait for the words to come back
For the tides to recede
Eyes to clear
So here I am
Typing it out
Putting the words on paper
So they don't disappear
Nailing the thoughts and feelings to this page
So I can see them
Distance myself
Here I am again
This desolate place
Familiar yet terrifying
Again
