I Know

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TW: DEPICTIONS OF SELF HARM, IN THIS CHAPTER.

October 31st, 2001

Hugh:

I was still reeling from my time in the closet spent with Katie, and my mind was elsewhere, when I entered the upstairs bathroom, walking in on someone.

Not just someone, Lizzie and what I saw will forever haunt me. 

She was using one of my father's razor blades to slice into her skin, not fatally just enough to hurt and make her bleed. 

"Liz! Stop what are you doing?" I grabbed the blade out of her hands and start inspecting the wound.

"Just leave me alone, go back to your new perfect girlfriend, leave the old damaged one to die." Liz is sobbing.

"Is that why you did this? Because of Katie?" I asked tears filling my own eyes.

Lizzie remains silently sobbing.

The cut is barely deep and won't need a doctor, "I'll go get my Mam." But Liz grabs my arm before I can leave.

"No, please no one can know!"

"Liz, she's a nurse, she can help you."

"Please, just please I won't do It again, I promise."

"How can I believe you, you always say it's the last time and it never fucking is, I'm seriously worried about you."

"Just please don't tell, it will send my mother over the edge, and I promise I won't do it again."

"If I even suspect you're doing it again, Liz I'm going straight to your parents." I say, once again manipulated by this girl. I get the first aid kit out from under the sink and start cleaning and bandaging the wound like my mother's taught me after so many rugby injuries. After I've finished with that, I grab a cloth, run it under warm water and wipe Lizzie's face, her crying has made her makeup slide off and I take it all off.

After, I'm done and she's finally stopped crying we just look at each other, I still have so much love for her, but not like I did before, she doesn't want me, she needs someone who will take care of her, but will also push anyone away who tries to take care of her. 

Lizzie steps closer to me, and leans in to try to kiss me, I push her back gently grasping onto her shoulders, "Liz, you need to sleep, I'll call your Da, to come and pick you up." She looks sad and rejected, but I refuse to throw yet another good thing away in my life because of Elizabeth Young.

"I'm sorry Hugh."

"I know."


Thanks for reading! Kind of a sad short one but next chapter is Katie, Johnny, Patrick and Edel being iconic, so good things to come!  - H<3

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