Seeing You - Boys of Tommen

Enough

November 14th, 2003

Katie:

"Is everything okay?" I ask as Gibsie walks back in, Patrick had practically dragged him out of the theatre, and he looked mad.

"Uh, yeah... He wasn't feeling too good, he's gonna go home." Gibsie answers nervously.

"The movie's almost over, can't he wait?"

"I don't think so." He answers ominously.

 My body moves of its own accord, I stand up and exit the theatre to find Patrick, Hugh moves to get up too, but Gibsie stops him and I feel grateful.

I find him outside of the theatre, sitting on the curb in the pouring rain. He's not on his phone or anything he's just staring at his hands.

I sit down beside him, "What's wrong Patrick?"

"Nothing, just not feeling too well." He sounds detached, distant.

"I don't think sitting out in the rain, is going to help." I say feeling annoyed.

"Just go back inside." He says, and I'm taken back by this tone.

"Did I do something?" I ask, sounding small.

"No."

"Then why?"

"I'm sick."

"Not right now, you've been different since the summer."

For the first time, he looks at me and he has a surprised expression on his face. He looks back at his hands, "I don't know what you're talking about." He clips out.

"That's not true, you've been quiet and distant for months."

"Why do you care?"

His question hits me like a knife to the gut, "We're friends."

"Are we?"

"Yes, and I'm worried about you."

"Don't bother."

"Why are you mad at me? I know I haven't been there for you, but..." Patrick stands up and I stand up too. 

"There for me? I'm not your boyfriend or even your friend for that matter so stop asking questions you wouldn't be willing to give me the answers to." I step onto the curb to be more eye level with him. 

I'm taken back by his response, he's raised his voice but I'm not scared. "What are you talking about?"

"We were friends, until you completely withdrew from me." And then he adds as an afterthought, "and Johnny and Gibsie." He's mad now, and I can feel it too, like an energy, that's almost palpable between us. "I asked you, I fucking begged you to tell me what was wrong, you fainted in my god damn arms and you wouldn't tell me."

I'm in shock, I didn't realize he saw me like this, "Patrick, I..."

"No, just forget it, okay?" He starts walking away from me.

I don't know what I'm doing as I step in front of him, and he walks right into me, our bodies are pressed together and neither of us moves. I tilt my head up and see him looking down at me, his eyes are dark and intense, and my heart skips a beat. 

I feel like the world has stopped for us, the globe has stopped spinning for us to have this, this moment. My eyes follow the raindrops falling down his tan skin and dark hair. 

His head slowly lowers closer to my mine, and I'm paralyzed. "Katie Kat" he whispers and I'm entranced. 

When his forehead presses into mine, an alarm goes off in my mind and I realize the gravity of the situation I've found myself in. I abruptly pull away, and Patrick looks devastated for less than a second before schooling his features. "Sorry, I'm just... fuck, Bye Katie." He walks right past me.

"Patrick wait" I say, but he doesn't turn around. I feel so confused and guilty. Nothing really happened but I feel like I'm on fire, despite being dripping wet from the rain.

From the distance I hear him say "enough" under his breath. Leaving more confused than I've ever been.

Thanks for reading! Kind of love this chapter lol  - H < 3