Seeing You - Boys of Tommen

Love, Actually

November 14th, 2003

Patrick:

"Are you all free tonight?" Gibsie asks, and I'm already dreading whatever scheme or party he's got planned for today.

"Academy training." Johnny says and Gibsie nods.

"I don't know" I said.

"No Pa, you have to come."

"Why?"

"Because, last week Claire dragged me to see that new Love Actually film and I know you'll love it."

"The Christmas movie? Why would you think I'd like it?"

"You're coming." Gibsie decided and I just shrugged, "How about you two?"

"Yeah, sure we'll come" Hugh answers for both him and Katie.

"Brilliant!"

When we get to the theatre I think that Katie's surprised that I actually came, I was still thinking about what she almost said that day in the music room, the abrupt interaction played on a loop in my mind.

Hugh got Katie and himself a popcorn to share, and we entered the theatre. She sat in between, Hugh and Gibsie.

I didn't mind the film, it wasn't what I would usually watch, but I didn't hate it and I could tell Katie was loving it. 

Katie started crying when Emma Thompson found out about her husband was cheating and Hugh consoled her, she also looked away when the nude scenes came on, which made me laugh.

I quickly realized the reason behind Gibsie's insisting that I come to the cinema to watch this movie, was because one of the main storylines was a pair of best friends and one of them is in love with the other one's girl. He has to watch them get married and just be there, so close to who he loves. He goes through the whole movie miserable, and when he finally tells her how he feels, with an elaborate show of posters and fake carollers. She kisses him, and then goes back to his best friend. And he says "enough" and walks away.

"Should I start making the signs?" Gibsie whispers to me. 

I don't know what the fuck he was thinking, showing me this, but it makes me angry. I'm most likely projecting about the fact that he didn't get a happy ending, and I wouldn't either. 

I pick him up by his collar and take him out of the theatre, away from Katie and Hugh. He could probably stop me, from dragging me but he just lets me.

"What the hell?" I ask, trying to keep my voice down.

"I thought you'd like it."

"You thought that I would like, seeing that? He's miserable and he'll always be miserable." Just like me.

"Well.." I think at  this point, Gibsie's realizing I didn't just think Katie was pretty and sweet, and it wasn't just some stupid crush, he could bug me about. "I didn't think..." I'm regretting letting him see me like this, but I assumed he knew how I felt. 

"Yeah, you never think do ya?" I hate being mean to Gibsie, he's the last person who deserves it, but it feels like I just saw my future. I might have to watch them get married, and have a life together, and I'll be on the sidelines.

"Sorry lad."

"It's fine, I'm just gonna go, tell her I'm sick or something."

"Don't you mean them?" I didn't.

"Um... Yeah, just forget about this, I'll see ya on Monday."

"Okay...Lad."

I repeat "enough" over and over in my head, hoping that if I say it enough it will become true.

Thanks for reading! If you haven't watched Love Actually then this chapter definitely made no sense, so sorry about that lol. I would recommend to watch it though!  - H <3