The rational part of my brain knows it's not real but unfortunately the rational part of my brain isn't very good at overpowering the irrational part. I know it's wrong to need external validation but I don't know how to just not when it's someone I actually care about. All I see are flaws.
I turned seventeen today. I never ever thought I'd make it this far. Will seventeen-year-old Kayla still feel this way? What about eighteen, twenty, thirty-year-old Kayla? I'm starting to think I'll be ninety and still never feel like I'm good enough.
