I relapsed.
How do I stop these intrusive thoughts
I wouldn't do those things
I know I wouldn't but they still scare me so bad
I haven't cried since it happened, not until now
It's like I was bottling everything up and it just had to burst out
There's so many things I want to say but since I can't control my temper once I get going I just have to write them here
My brother is in the hospital because he almost died can you not have some fucking empathy
You ignored me all day and lied that you weren't mad and now you're mad because I'm 5 minutes late, you could've just driven yourself instead
You cry and get angry when I'm not perfect but I've let so much slide because I don't want to lose you which isn't fucking easy. You're mad that I'm late but did you even notice any of the times I was fading away?
I didn't ask for any of this
Your life isn't even that bad so stop fucking crying
