Is not knowing which feelings you can trust and which you can't because you know in a few hours your mood is going to shift violently, which makes you terrified to be alone with your thoughts
And the second is the guilt of being a burden on other people and of needing constant reassurance
There's a reason it's so hard to tell you any of this
I'm so scared if you knew my thoughts you'd change your mind about loving me
And how do you tell your best friend you're genuinely afraid you're slowly going insane
