Will I love you so much but you could not be further from the truth, and I feel bad for feeling bad if that makes sense. I don't want to talk about today, that's between me and my therapist. I want to see Eleanor but then I'll have to talk to her and that's something I just can't do. I'm sorry. I really tried to be okay but I'm not. How are you supposed to deal with it when the one person you thought you could be completely honest and vulnerable with and loved you no matter what was lying to you? When you really thought she meant it when she said those things to you? It shouldn't hurt this much but it does. It really really does. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for everything.
