What Percy said bothered me a little, I mean he's right I am the kind of person who keeps that stuff private. But like, I don't have to and I kind of don't want to, not completely. Does that make sense? No offense to Vie and Will but especially when compared to them I feel like people see me as the innocent, inexperienced, clueless little sister and I don't like that. At all. And then they expect it so when I do or say anything that implies I'm not that, it's a big deal. I'm tired of feeling like I stand out from everyone else and like there's something wrong with me in every single aspect. I'm not saying it's Percy's or anyone's fault. I just wish I could feel normal and that this kind of stuff didn't have to feel like such a big deal. It's not fair, it feels like this stuff comes so naturally to everyone else but me. Like everyone else just knows exactly what you're supposed to say and do and all that and I don't.
I just love you, Eleanor. Why does everyone, even you, have to make me feel like that's such a crime?
