I'm so tired of being angry
I'm not mad at her but I'm still mad
Does that make sense?
I'm so so tired of feeling like I'm not good enough
Michaela's journal III
Table of contents-
initial thoughts
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what the fuck
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ten months
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how could you
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what i didn't say about that night
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two places
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issues
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switched roles
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song
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my therapist should get a raise
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undo
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i can't help it
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maybe i should just move to florida
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stick together
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sad
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my fault
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you drew stars around my scars
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flaws
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word vomit
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and i'm dying to know if it's killing you like it's killing me
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distraction
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seriously
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sorry
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labels
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what i like and stuff
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a word about my dad (several actually)
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i love you, i'm sorry
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things are good but
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makeup
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insane
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and the thing is
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it never stops
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awkward
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fuckkk
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"is that ok"
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it'll all work out
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wdyci
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thoughts
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...or do you just not want to?
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sometimes i forget how much anger i have in me
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be so fucking for real for a minute
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i do trust you
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oops
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what is wrong with you
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it's a date
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of course he knows
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"not all men"
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ugh i hate when adults are right
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"but everyone feels that way"
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a pathological people-pleaser
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i don't know what else to do
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i don't understand
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thank gods i'm gay
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and you said that i'm just like dad
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christmas
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merry christmas!
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i want to be me, is that not allowed
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i just want you to want me as much as i want you
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the last 24 hours have felt like a month
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complicated
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happy new year
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fuck this
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please. i've been on my knees
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i'm a very simple woman actually
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please don't hate me for being a hormonal teenager
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is it insensitive for me to say...?
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...
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good thing we didn't end up getting a fish
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the intrusive thoughts won
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dream girl
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episode
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crush?
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why
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breathe
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spiral
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?
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i'm trying
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the worst part
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there's a reason I'm not a daughter of athena
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"i'm used to it"
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stop.
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what you're thinking
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"ok"
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what i didn't say
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how are people so normal about this stuff?
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splitting
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a few things i like about myself (i know shocking)
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idm
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.
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quiet
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what's the point
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OD
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what i like about myself pt. 2
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obsessed
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anxious
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who would you be if there was nobody watching?
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i don't know what's wrong with me
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would my suffering be special then?
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ESOEMOEHOED
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maybe different ain't a bad thing to be
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i don't understand
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update
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the archer
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therapy
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valentine's day
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block me out
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in my head
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midnight
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meds
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:/
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fp
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intrusive thoughts
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eleanor say you love me like you did before
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i'm not ready to go
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sigh
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reasons not to kill myself (ongoing list)
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grudge
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anniversary
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why do good people suffer?
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asher?
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pissed
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the ugly truth
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another word vomit
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signals
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mean things i wanted to say but didn't
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+
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if this was a movie
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bittersweet
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man i hate taking accountability
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AITA
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on purpose
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it's hard
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