I think the harder I try the more I screw things up.
I always feel like I'm too much or not enough
Like I could always be doing more for you
I don't know what else you want from me and I would do anything if I just knew what
What do I need to do
what do I need to change to not feel like we're always walking on eggshells
Don't you realize I'm insecure too
Like painfully so and I always have been
I can count on one hand the number of days in the last year that I've gone without contacts and a full face of makeup
And I know it's not your fault but I'm so scared that we're going to drift away and I miss when it didn't feel like that all the time
I never ever know what you're thinking so can you blame me for not always telling you the way I feel when you don't talk to me
Can you blame me for being confused when we used to be so close and now everything's different
I shouldn't have to talk to Will when I feel insecure about our relationship I should just be able to tell you
I should be a lot of things, I should stop being so selfish and most of all I should know exactly what to do and say and how to be a good girlfriend because if I really loved you then you would know wouldn't you? You'd just know without any doubt and I do love you I love you so much that it hurts it hurts so much I can't sleep at night I'm so scared that it's only a matter of time before you realize that you don't feel the same. But no matter how many times you say it it doesn't feel real and maybe if you loved me more you'd realize that.
