Why can't I just be in two places at once
It's not that I don't want to see him obviously but it hurts so bad to see him hurting knowing I can't do anything to help and I hate being at camp I can't just be a normal camper because it just feels so wrong and I feel like everyone is staring at me and I can't even go into our cabin without feeling like I'm going to have a panic attack remembering all the nights I spent crying myself to sleep and plagued by nightmares and praying I didn't wake up
