The thing is I really can't afford to be picky, I probably need to seriously lower my standards because honestly anyone who can put up with me is the most I can ask for but then again where's the harm in writing it down where no one will see it
Femme
Dark or dyed hair
I guess that's all I have for looks
She doesn't have to be pretty but she does have to think I'm pretty. And tell me that regularly because I'm actually super vain. And she has to be obsessed with me, loud and publicly to the point where it's almost embarrassing. Be excited about me. And she has to know how to keep a conversation going and but also be a good listener. Be mature and communicate instead of getting upset. She has to be kind and calm but also never take shit from people. Basically she has to act like she actually wants to be with me and never make me feel dumb or annoying or like I'm too much or not enough. Now that I'm saying all this it really doesn't seem like too much to ask. And yet I still have this deep fear that Eleanor is the best I'll ever have. And sometimes, Eleanor is all those things but a lot of the time I find myself wishing things were different. Is that my own fault? Is it so bad to want to be happy all the time and not just some of the time? I don't want to just settle. But also patience is really Not my strong suit.
