Kaylee Jaymie Halstead

Memorial Day Part 2

TW: TALKS ABOUT SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, SELF HARM

Justin pov
Hank and Kaylee walked in and Kaylee went straight to her room slamming the door
Kaylee: Urgh! I fucking hate him!
Justin: I'll go
I went up to her room and I walked into her throwing things around and punching the wall. I went over and just held her. Within a few seconds she broke down crying
Justin: you're okay. Everything's okay
Her hand was all swollen and her knuckles were bleeding
Justin; I'm gonna get you an ice pack
Kaylee: I'm fine
Justin: no you're not
I went and got an ice pack
Hailey: is she okay?
Justin: not really no
I went back up and put the ice pack on her knuckles
Kaylee: ow that fucking hurts
Justin: you lost a fight with the wall so I don't see what you expect
Kaylee: alright
Justin: you wanna tell me what all this is about?
Kaylee: it's nothing
Justin: it is something if it's made you explode like this
Kaylee: I'm worried about dad. He's stopped taking his meds and I know he's hurting himself again. I'm worried that he's gonna do something stupid
Justin: what happened?
Kaylee: well we followed dad to some guys house who hit into the car with dad and they went to the cemetery. I was running up and down the road when I crashed into dad. Dad went off at me. He told me to fuck off and leave him alone.
Justin: that's not like him
Kaylee: I went off back at him. Told him I was scared and that maybe I cared too much. I said that i don't care anymore.
She went quiet
Justin: that's not it is it?
Kaylee: no I said that if he was gonna do what I think he's gonna do that I will never forgive him and he won't only be leaving me and hailey but you'll be leaving the baby, Daisy, Owen, Jax, everyone. I told him to think about when the kids come round and he's not there and they're asking us where he is. I said that the adults will lie to them but I'll tell them the truth. I'll tell them that he did the most selfish thing a person can do. We weren't worth living for. We weren't worth pushing through the dark times and getting help. I said that I couldn't lose him but I'm worried that we're not worth fighting for anymore
She broke down crying again
Justin: we're gonna help him kiddo
She eventually cried herself to sleep and Iaid her in her bed. I went downstairs
Justin: I'm gonna fucking kill him
Dad: Justin
Justin: No dad he thinks he can talk to her like shit because he's having a bad day. He couldn't even tell her that she was worth living for. She's scared to death that Jays gonna do something stupid
Jay: I'm not gonna do anything
I went over to him and pinned him against the wall
Dad: Justin get off him
Justin: No. he's doesn't get to treat Kaylee like shit and get away with it just cause he's not taking his meds
Jay: I'll make it up to her I promise
Justin: you don't get it Jay. She's scared to death that we aren't worth living for and you're gonna do one thing that you can't take back
Jay: I wasn't going to I swear. I mean I thought about it but after seeing Kaylee like that. I don't know. I guess I knew I couldn't. I realised how much I've got to live for.
Hailey: you haven't been taking your meds?
Jay: no
Dad: why not Jay? They stop you from going to this dark place
Jay: I know. I promise I'll go and see Daniel. I'll go back on my meds. I'll start seeing Daniel every week
Hailey: Kaylees not gonna forgive you that quickly babe. She's stubborn like you
Jay: I know

Jay pov
My stomach was itching and I could feel the blood seeping through my shirt
Justin: Jay you're bleeding
Jay: I'm fine
Hank came over but I pushed him away
Jay: I'm fine so leave me alone
Will pulled me into the kitchen
Jay: get the fuck off me will
Will: lemme see
Jay: No
Will: Jay let me help you
Jay: No
Will: I've seen all these before Jay
Jay: I know it's just I'm embarrassed. I've disappointed everyone. My own kid hates me
Will: she doesn't hate you. She's worried about you Jay. We all are
I took my top off and I had my head down
Will: there's nothing to be ashamed of
Will got the first aid kit and put some cream on it
Will: if you ever feel like this again please talk to me
Jay: I'll try. I need to go see Kaylee
I went upstairs and Kaylee was having a nightmare. I ran in and just held her
Jay: hey you're okay. Everyone's okay
Kaylee: d-dad
Jay: I'm sorry kiddo. I'm so so sorry
Kaylee: I thought I lost you
Jay: I'm not going anywhere peach. I promise. Me and you against the world
She hugged me back
Kaylee: I'm still pissed at you
Jay: I know kiddo. I know. I'm gonna make it up to you I swear no matter how long it takes. I know I have to gain back your trust. I know I hurt you. How about a takeaway and a movie?
Kaylee: okay but I get to pick
Jay: of course
Kaylee: you gonna see Daniel?
Jay: yeah I need to get better and I can't do that without help
I went back downstairs
Jay: where's Justin?
Hank: he's gone to calm down
Jay: im sorry
I sat next to hailey and she just held me
Hailey: you need help Jay
Jay: I know
Hank: you have a lot of making up to do with her
Jay: I know pops
Justin walked back in and I could tell he was still pissed. He sat on the other couch
Will: I'll order us takeout
Jay: Kaylees gonna want Chinese
Will: that's cool
Will ordered and we were all sat down. After about half an hour the food arrived and Will sorted it out
Will: Kaylee dinner!

Justin pov
Justin: I'll go
I went up to Kaylees room and knocked on the door
Justin: Kaylee dinners here
No answer
I walked in and she was just staring at the wall. Her face was twitching. It lasted a few more seconds before it stopped
Kaylee: hmm
Justin: dinner
Kaylee: okay
Justin: you feeling okay?
She just shrugged
Justin: come on let's get something to eat
We went downstairs and she sat down next to me. I noticed Jay look over at her and I just shook my head.
Kaylee: can we watch grown ups?
Jay: if you want
Jay put it on and we just sat in an awkward silence. As the movie went on I kept an eye on Kaylee. Her hand was twitching. I nudged her and she looked at me
Justin: you okay?
Kaylee: mhm
Justin: You sure?
Kaylee: yeah why?
Justin: you're twitchy
Kaylee: oh
Hailey: Kaylee?
Justin: it's been going on for the last 10 minutes
Hailey: rescue?
Jay: mhm
Jay went to the kitchen then came back. He sprayed it up her nose. The twitching slowed down
Kaylee: I didn't need it
Jay: yes you did
Kaylee: I'm going to bed