Kaylee Jaymie Halstead

Christmas Pt 2

TW: Suicidal thoughts and talk of suicide
Kaylee pov
I woke up and I could hear a lot more voices than earlier. I put on one of dad's sweatshirts and my Nike sweatpants. I went downstairs and Owen ran up to me straight away.
Owen: I missed you
Kaylee: I missed you too
Owen: play with me
Kaylee: in a minute I just need to speak to uncle Jay okay.
I went to find dad
Kaylee: dad
Dad: how you feeling peach?
Kaylee: better
Dad: everyone's here now
Kaylee: cool
Dad: All the kids are here aswell
Kaylee: okay
Kelly walked over and gave me a hug.
Kaylee: really?
Kelly: what am i not allowed to give you a hug anymore?
Kaylee: I'm joking. You give the best hugs
Kelly: Jaxon's missed you
Kaylee: he here?
Kelly: yep. Jax come here
He ran over and gave me a big hug
Jaxon: Kaylee you're here
Kaylee: of course I'm here. You been having a good Christmas?
Jaxon: mhm daddy let me have sweets for breakfast and i opened all my presents
Kaylee: wow you're a lucky boy
Jaxon: play?
Kaylee: soon okay. How about you, Owen and Daisy play a game and I'll play soon.
Jaxon: okay
Kaylee: remember to play nicely okay especially with Daisy
He ran off. The doorbell rang and it was Freddie and Nat.
Dad: hey guys
I was sat on the sofa and Freddie sat next to me. Owen came running in and hugged Nat
Owen: Mommy!
Nat: hi baby. Why don't you go say bye to everyone?
Owen: i wan stay mommy.
Nat: we need to get going. I need to make you dinner.
Owen: no wan stay
Dad: Nat you're more than welcome to stay for dinner.
Nat: no it's fine
Dad: Nat i insist please
Nat: fine but I'm not talking to that brother of yours
Dad: that's fine
Owen: yay
He ran away again
Freddie: how you been i haven't seen you in school?
Kaylee: I've been good. I'm not at school for the whole day i only do a few hours
Freddie: cool.
Kaylee: so what's new with you?
Freddie: dad left again so I'm staying with Connor and Justin
Kaylee: how is it?
Freddie: Justin's cool but Connor is tryna play the concerned big brother like he wasn't the one who left me with that controlling asshole. He's tryna buy my forgiveness
Kaylee: it will work out in the end it always will
Freddie: yeah i guess. You got any cool presents?
Kaylee: i don't know I've just been sleeping so i don't have a seizure filled day
Dad: kids! Presents!

All the younger kids came running down the stairs and sat on the floor. Dad and will were giving out the presents. We all opened presents but I didn't open the ones from dad and hailey. Daisy didn't open any because she doesn't like the wrapping paper so Connor did it for her.
Kaylee: thanks for the presents
All: thank you everyone.
Jaxon: Play with me
Kaylee: what you wanna play?
Jaxon: hide and seek
Kaylee: ok go see if anyone else wants to play
He ran off. After about 5 minutes Owen came over
Owen: we playing. You count
He ran off and I pretended I was counting.
Dad: I'm gonna be dishing dinner up soon
Kaylee: okay
I then went to find them. I saw Jaxon straight away. He was laid under a blanket on the couch but his feet were hanging out
Kaylee: Jaxon where are you?
Connor have you seen jax?
Connor: No I think I saw him by the laundry basket
I pretended to check. I heard him giggling.
Kaylee: hmm where could he be?
I then pulled the blanket
Kaylee: there you are
I started tickling him.
Kaylee: you gonna help me find the others?
Jaxon: yeah yeah yeah
He ran off. I was grabbing a drink when they all came back
Jaxon: look I found them
I gave him a high five
Kaylee: good job
Dad: kids dinner
We went into the kitchen and everyone was passing around the food. Kelly and will done Owen and Jaxon's and Justin did Daisy's. We all said Grace then started eating. After I helped dad clean up by putting all the dishes in the dishwasher. I went up to my room and was sat on my bed.

After a while I heard the door open and then shouting
Freddie: leave
??: son just hear me out
Freddie: no I didn't need you then and I don't need you now. I'm better off without you
??: Connor you're gonna let him speak to me that way
Connor: You deserve a lot worse
I heard a knock on my door and Justin walked in with all the kids.
Justin: can I leave them in here with you just until things cool down. Daisy's getting overwhelmed which is only gonna end in a meltdown
Kaylee: of course they can. Who wants to watch a movie?
Jackson: I do
Daisy put her hands to her ears and began pacing.
Justin: hey sweetie it's okay
Daisy: loud. Too loud
Justin: I know honey but it's gonna be a lot more quieter
She wasn't calming down so I knelt down infront of her holding my headphones.
Kaylee: how about we put these on to make it quieter?
She shook her head and started flapping her hands.
Kaylee: I promise it will make everything better. How about she give it a try? Will that be okay?
She nodded. I put the headphones on her and she was calming down
Kaylee: how about we watch a movie?
Jaxon: Madagascar
I looked at Daisy and she nodded. They laid on my bed and I put the movie on.
Kaylee: you guys stay here while I go speak to uncle Jay okay? I'll be up soon

I went out the room and Justin followed me
Kaylee: so what's going on down there then?
Justin: Connor's dad is back and wants Freddie to spend Christmas with him
Kaylee: oh shit
I went downstairs and it was still kicking off.
Cornelius (Cory): why is it so much just to ask my son to spend Christmas with me?
Freddie: cause I'm only your son when it's fucking convenient for you you arrogant self righteous prick
Cory: I got you a present
Freddie: I don't give a fuck
Cory: it's that MacBook you've always wanted
Freddie: Connor already got me it. you can't just buy your way into my life. Why can't you understand? You don't just get to walk out and come back when it suits you.
He tried to hug him and Freddie pushed him off
Freddie: get the fuck off me
Cory: but I'm your dad
Freddie: my dads dead
Cory: I raised you
Freddie: mom and Connor raised me you just threw money at us
Cory: son please let me make it up to you
Freddie: I'm not your son! I'm Calvin's son! now go fuck yourself
Cory: I raised you!
Freddie: I don't give a fuck! It should've been you instead of mom! You drove her to it! You! You're the reason she's dead
Cory: No she's dead cause she got stuck with a hyperactive little shit who just caused problems. She would ask herself where she went wrong. What did she do to get stuck with a burden like you? You drove her insane! She's dead because of you! Deep down you know that! It was you! It was all you!
Connor: Dad you're out of order. Leave now!
He pushed past Cory
Connor: Freddie he didn't mean it
Freddie: you know what you can both go fuck your self.
He then ran off
Connor: I should go after him.
Kaylee: Can I come with you? I think I know where he's going
Connor: sure

Me and Connor got in his car and drove. We were approaching an alleyway and I told Connor to stop here. we saw a guy pass Freddie something then walked the opposite way. Freddie was walking back and Connor got out the car
Connor: what are you doing Freddie?
Freddie: what does it look like?
Connor: you don't need this kiddo
Freddie: what would you know Connor? You don't know me. You know nothing about me
Connor: pass me the pills
Freddie: no
Connor: please Fred I know where this will end up and I can't lose you
Freddie: I'm sorry Connor but I can't
Connor: Freddie please
Freddie: you don't understand
Connor: then talk to me
Freddie: didn't you hear him? Mom killed herself because of me. I just cause problems. I ruin everyone's lives.
Connor: listen to me okay mom was mentally ill. She was off her meds and that's what killed her. Bipolar is what killed her. You don't need the pills Fred
Freddie: they make everything go away. They make me feel good.
Connor: we can find other ways
Freddie: you're not listening to me. They make me happy. They stop me wanting to give up
Connor: what do you mean Freddie?
Freddie: you know what I mean. Sometimes I wanna die. Someone I want all this pain to end. Sometimes I just wanna be with mom. I don't wanna be here anymore
Connor: Freddie
Connor gave him a hug and Freddie started crying.
Connor: it's okay. I think we need to have a little talk when we get home okay.
They got in the car and dropped me home.
Connor: tell your dad and hailey I said thank you for having us and can you tell Justin that I've had to take Freddie home
Kaylee: sure
Connor: see ya kiddo
Freddie: bye Kaylee I'll see you at school
Kaylee: bye
I gave him a hug
Kaylee: I can't lose you. Promise me you'll talk to some one
Freddie: I will. Connor's gonna get me an appointment with dr Charles
I went in
Dad: you ready to open your presents?
Kaylee: mhm
I opened them all and I was so happy with them. I ran to dad and hailey and gave them a massive hug
Kaylee: thank you guys so much
Hailey: like it?
Kaylee: love it
Dad: that's good
Kaylee: oh yeah Justin, Connor had to take Freddie home
Hank: that's fine I'll take you home.
Kaylee: did the kids fall asleep?
Dad: yep. Nat had to carry Owen because he was fast asleep.
Kelly walked down the stairs carrying Jaxon.
Kelly: we should get going thanks for having us round
Dad: no problem
They left with will and Hank, Justin and Daisy left. Me, dad and hailey sat on the sofa
Dad: you have a good day?
Kaylee: yep
We watched a film then went to bed.