Summer

Legendary

What happens next after you get what you wanted? Is there supposed to be some sense of relief, that you made it through all the obstacles. Or does it start to feel like a loss because you hated the anger that came with it. Because I didn't know if it was true or not. It hurt almost more than anything I ever experienced. But at the same time, there was a bigger part of me that felt ecstatic. I had never loved him more than I did at that moment. I also hated him at the same time.

Ace continued to hold me close, and we said nothing for the longest time. Both of us were terrified to break the silence. My eyes were closed, body trembling despite the warm air surrounding us. Those words were hard for either of us to say, but unlike him I was no longer hiding. He had no idea what it was like to wait and wait, only for disaster strike of the first mention of his feelings toward me.

We were together, but now I knew that nothing was going to really change. All he had done was given in to what he thought would keep me. It made me so angry that I wanted to dig my nails into my palms just to prove a point. Ace was never really going to let me in. Not in the way I needed. This couldn't work. I was tired of going around in circles and chasing something I'd never have with him. But there was part of me that didn't want to leave, I loved him. That should have been enough.

It was then I knew I had to go. I was about to tell him, but it was then he moved back to look at me. His fingers brushed against my jaw, his eyes burning into mine. Goosebumps covered my skin just by that one simple touch. But I had to be strong. Only my head was turning fuzzy at the warmth of his skin grazing mine. It was becoming harder and harder to breathe. I had to walk away or else I'd just fall right back in.

Days would slip away and soon I'd be right back in this cycle. Loving someone so unattainable it hurt to even look their way. Hating that they could leave you behind like it's nothing. I was so tired of being everyone's last pick, when would I be put first? Was it too much to ask for him to just simply want me back? Maybe I wasn't meant to have him love me back.

"Summer...I do love you." Ace admitted, his frame tense as he waited for my reaction. "I do."

"Y-You...l-lov-" I couldn't even finish my sentence before I was blubbering. My brain was mush and everything I thought just went out of my head.

"I've never said those words to any other person beside my Dad." Ace's figure was blurry through my tears, but I was in a state of shock. "But I want you to know that I'm in. I want you here. I said before and I'll say it again, I want us."

"Ace..." I was trying to calm myself down, when he made lose it all over again. Only he could do this to me.

"Just don't lie to me. Not anymore." Ace looked at my closed palms. "I'm not fucking stupid, I know you still do that shit. I need you to stop."

"I've tried." I admitted. "It's hard." I was lying alreadly. I hadn't even tried to stop. 

He grabbed my hands, opening up to look at the scars that I've kept hidden. My figure slumped in embarrassment and I had to look away. But he surprised me by bringing them up to his lips, kissing each and every scar that was there. I felt his lips brush against the first one and it brought me back to watching her in the sit next to me, strung out and determined to get her fix. With me never understanding how it was so easy to give me away. But then I blinked and I was back to his watchful eyes, that loved me in a way she never did. A way that no one ever had.

"Don't lie to me." Ace whispered against my skin. "Tell me everything and I'll do the same." That was something that was harder than he knew. I wanted to tell him everything, but I was so scared. Now that I had Ace, the last thing I wanted to do was lose him. "I hate people who lie to me."