Keeping up with The Carters

Different S3E23

Episode 23: Different
Bey POV
April 7th
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New York felt...different today. Kalani's been a closed book, jay been more awkward than usual, sydney's clearly-pregnant ass was here, khalil and amyra wont look me in the eyes, and the other three were just there.

Kalani sat on the floor, back against the couch, guitar in her lap. She wasn't even really playing it, just strumming the same few chords over and over again.I sat on the couch watching her for a second.

B: Hey baby, you gonna play something or just torture that same note all day?

K: I am playing!

She snapped a little.

B: oookay

I could tell how this conversation was about to go.

B: So...have you thought about which college you're picking?

She blew her breath.

K: No.

B: No? Why not

K: Because!

B: im gonna ignore that, look I know these next two months the pressure is on so lets try to make this simple. How long does an engineering degree takes?

K: Five years.

B: well would you rather spend five years in houston, cali, or louisiana

K: I dont know

B: ...Well do you know what kind of engineering you wanna—

She got up and walked away.

B: okay?

Jay walked in, we made eye contact and he turned back around. I stopped him.

B: um hello????

He turned around with a nervous chuckle.

J: heyyyy bey you're...here

B: I live here

I gave him a fake smile.

J: right right uh...thats cool?

B: jay you can stop being weird now I dont...Im hapoy for you

J: Im sorry

B: you dont have to apologize

J: No bey—

B: No I am married to my wife and you are with sydney, Im fine

J: ...I didn't mean for you to find out like that bey

B: Im good jay

I forced a smile on my face.

J: alright...hug?

I nodded opening my arms, he pulled me in and we relaxed against each other for a moment. I smiled for a second until we pulled away and both walked off awkwardly.

On The Patio Omniscient pov

Blue, Khalil, and Amyra sat outside talking. Snacks everywhere like always. Blue looked between them, confused.

Bl: So y'all really about to have a baby shower on the day the good Lord rose from the dead?

Amyra scrunched her face up.

A: Well last year He rose on the 20th. He needa pick a day!

Khalil laughed, Blue tried not to.

Bl: That's fair

She looked at Amyra again, softer this time.

Bl: Are yall scared?

Amyra paused.

A: Yeah but this pregnancy been good for me. I haven't been drinking. I'm not fighting all the time... And I'm finally away from that woman.

Kh: Im here for you babe

A: get the hell off of me!

She snatched away. Just hot and irritated.

Kh: DAMN?

Blue laughed.

Bl: youre tired of him already??

A: no its this baby, im happy one minute then I just snap

Kh: oh you were like that before the baby

Amyra snapped her neck at him. Blue chuckled.

Later That Night Kalani pov

Kalani sat in on the floor in her pjs with a pen and paper humming something she wrote down.

K: Bullshit repeats itself. Is that how the saying goes?
Been here a thousand times, selective memory though.
I hear it in her eyes. She sees it in my tone. Is what it is
and it's predictable

Her voiced picked up a bit.

K: Called it a false alarm to all of our friends Then we almost broke up again...last night

Bey Pov

I was sitting at the table still, it was eleven o clock and all my work was finished yet I stalled going upstairs. I didnt feel a way about jay and sydney having a baby im happy for them but...there's something thats still lingering in my chest.

I sighed shutting my laptop finally heading upstairs. I peeked in my babies rooms telling them good night, they wouldn't let me kiss them. Fake asses. Then I headed to my bedroom and that's when I heard it...moaning.

B: fucking disgusting

I closed my door a little harder than I intended and climbed into bed.