Keeping up with The Carters

The Need to Know S3E30

Beyonce Pov
Episode 30: The Need to Know
May 30th
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Incoming Call from Sissypooh😒💕

I hit decline for the third time, I knew what Solange wanted to talk about and I was avoiding that topic like the plague. But then she started spamming my phone like the annoying ass little sister she is.

Sissypooh😒💕

: GISELLE

: NIGGA ANSWER THE PHONE

: I KNOW YOU SEE ME CALLING YOU

: BEYONCE

: BEYONCE

: BEYONCE

: BEYONCE

I rolled my eyes at the constant dinging, I decided to answer.

"What solange"

"Girl! Why I gotta blow up your phone to talk to you!?"

"Cus I know what you're gonna say!"

"Talk to them kids!!"

"See!" I rolled my eyes again.

"Bey they deserve to know"

"All they need to know is Jay is their father, biologically or not! He was there!!!"

"But they're old enough to for the truth and I'm sure they have questions and feelings about it"

"Solange I love my babies but right now my feelings are more important than theirs"

"What!? How could you say that??"

"Solange I don't want to talk about it"

"Bey said we'd call each other out on our bullshit and that's what I'm doing right now"

"You don't even know what happened!"

"None of us know what happened Beyonce! That's why we're asking. All we know is you and Jay were going through a rough patch then you ghosted everyone for four months then came back pregnant and you weren't the same since!"

I blew my breath as the tear rolled down my cheek. I didn't want to think about it. Ever.

"I can't talk about it because then...I'd have to think about it and I don't wanna do that" My voice dipped towards the end.

"Well Bey if you don't wanna tell us...talk to a therapist. We love you bey and we care, okay."

"Kay" I whispered.

The call disconnected and I slowly lowered the phone from my ear. Soft lips kissed my shoulder making me exhale.

"Bey I made breakfast"

"Thanks Jay"

He handed me a plate and we both sat at the top of the bed just thinking. His hand rubbed my arm slowly and carefully, I could feel him looking at me but I still stared at black tv screen.

"You're pretty quiet...what's on your mind?"

"August fifth" my voice cracked.

He knew exactly what that meant, it hit him like a brick wall as it did me.

"I'm sorry-" He muttered involuntarily.

"It's not- you didn't hurt me Jay. I mean you did but not...then"

"It started with me"

"You couldn't have known..."

I heard him sniffle in my left ear and the arm that was occupied by me he used to wipe his tears before I could see them. I laid my head on his chest I could tell he was hurting as much as I was.

"Solange said I should talk to the twins but...I can't"

"I'm not ready for that either"

"She also said I should probably speak to a professional. You and Kelly should too."

"Yeah..."

There was a long pause where I just looked at him until he broke the silence.

"What?"

"Can we kiss?"

Without a further question he leaned in and our lips pressed together. It didn't erase my mind or fix what happened but it surely did ease my mind.

Next Morning

SCISSORSISTERS👩🏾‍❤️‍💋‍👩🏾

: I had sex with Jay...

LeToya: BITCH

Mimi: WHAT

Kelly: OMG????

Latavia: GISELLE