I almost forgot to write today.
I spent the day waking up at one, and then making vine edits and playing sims and being unproductive in general. After writing poorly for two hours I decided to read more Kuroshitsuji. Bad idea. I'm on the witch story arc and my emotions are everywhere because of what's happening with Ciel. Y u do dis Yana? YYYYYY???
Then, because I'm not very bright, I decided to listen to the Tokyo Ghoul Theme song at that moment. That shit makes me feel things damn it. *velociraptor noises*
And then I was like craving the hurt or something Cuz I had to watch the last couple minutes of Tokyo Ghoul season two and that got me screaming in agony again. I'm an absolute wreck. *more velociraptor noises*
Anyway I plan on using this state of mind to write some tragic shit in my fanfics. Yeah. Totally.
I discovered something about myself just now.
I really love feeling sad. I don't know why. But I've always been a sucker for feelzy fanfics and stuff. You should see some of the stuff I write sometimes.
It's exactly a month until my birthday too. This years gonna suck worse than my fifteenth birthday when nobody showed up. Last year was fine because I had my best friend and we went out to see the Maze Runner. But this year she's gone to Alberta and I really don't have anybody else who has similar movie tastes to me. Maybe <kinda friend but not really> would like the Scorch Trials. That's coming out soon. She was always talking about wanting to see the first one which I have so maybe we could do that. But I don't know because me and her don't have a lot in common. Maybe I'll convince mom to take me to Cape Breton. She's always putting it off on me. I hate birthdays now. Sigh.
I need friends.
It's like, I don't want my birthday to end up being just another day, but it always is and that sucks. It's not my fault I don't know how to entertain ppl when they come over. At least with <bestie> we can watch anime and do crafts. But there's no one like that around anymore. Sigh.
Anyway. Moms home and I need to calm my feels. So bye.
