The App: App-ocalypse (1)

Day 25 - Being mad

I miss Cassandra. I miss Anton. I really miss my parents. And John of course. God, I even miss Georges or Mark.

Time moves slow in here. Adriana keeps talking to herself, Michael is annoying as hell and even Anna can be boring when she has a nightmare or starts being nostalgic about her past life and her husband. I don't want to know how they met or how they decided to get married or HUGH JUST SHUT UP ALREADY.

I mean she was my teacher I don't need to hear that.

Oh come on Eliza. This is so not why I don't want to hear her past life. And I just can't tell her anything. I mean.. I suppose I could. However I can't: what if she's not interested in me?

I tried to look out for signs. I just can't tell if she's genuinely friendly or if she's trying to seduce me. Sure we hug a lot and we're basically raising a child together - Adriana is too far gone to take care of Michael - but that probably doesn't mean anything.

I became awfully sensitive those past few days. I would like to say it's because I had my period or something but it's not just that. I can't stand being locked down with them. I'm getting annoyed with anything they say or do. I just can't stand any of them and I don't get how Anna could be that calm about the situation. She does not freak out when she's awake. Never. She's so strong...

I admire her. And that pisses me off too actually. Everytime. I just can't help but yell at her sometimes. She always forgave me so far. I yelled at Michael too but he's a child and considers it's normal to have an "adult" lecturing him. And Adriana just doesn't listen to us anymore.

Since John died she only get worse and worse. Everyday she seems to lost it a bit more: this morning she was singing a love song in Spanish. We didn't know she could speak Spanish so far. That made Anna nostalgic of her old life. That made me angry at the world and I yelled at Michael who was mocking Adriana. That made him cry.

Well it was indeed a good morning. And so will be our afternoon in the dark... I must calm down.