Wanting to be loved (Zuko)

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I hear Zuko return he is trying to be very quiet so he doesn't wake me up. 'Why did you go after him?' I ask calm. I heard him gasp 'You heard me come back?' 'No I felt you leave' I say and sit up. 'Why didn't you stop me then?' 'Because it wouldn't matter and I don't want to have a fight over some stupid man' I say to him. He takes off his cloths and puts them over the chair.

I look at his body and he knows it because he is eyeing my reaction. I stand up and walk over to him I push him against the wall and begin to kiss him passionately. At first he didn't react but regained himself fast and kisses me back.

I bite his lip a little less careful then other times. I feel him smile and open his mouth. He turns us around and now I'm against the wall. He lifts me up and holds his hands on my thighs and I wrap my legs around his hips. We let our lips release as he takes my shirt of. He gives me an passionate look and I push him off and he lets me go. I stand and push him to the bed he sits down and I sit on his lap. He begins to kiss my neck a makes a trail down to my breasts and takes of my top. I felt a little conscious of my body right now and I try to cover myself. 'No, no don't do that. Don't cover yourself, your beautiful' he says softly as he takes my hands away. I tried to resist but he is stronger. When my hands are out of the way he looks at me and really looks at me. I can't take it and push my lips on his again. If feel his going up on my back and then to my front. I try to slap his hands away but he keeps going on so I let him.

He turns us around again and I lay beneath him............. (Adult stuff)

The next morning I wake up and see that Zuko is still asleep. I got up really quiet and put on my clothes. I need to be around some water. I leave my sai on the table so Zuko sees them and knows I will come back. He knows I won't leave them here. I walk out and follow the feeling of water and find a river. I walk to it and do some stretching then I walk in to the river and begin my waterbending training. It feels so nice to do this now and that I don't have to hide it anymore. I practice my standing and the moves I already knew and I try out some new things.

I feel someone coming closer and hold up my guard and ready to attack. When the person comes in sight I see it's Zuko and he is holding my sai. 'Good morning, you came on the right time I wanted to try something' I say to him. 'Good morning to you to. What is it that you want to try?' he asks.

'You hold my sai and I try to grab them with waterbending, so if I throw them or when they are not in my reach I can grab them' I explain and Zuko nods and holds them out. I make sure my stand is good and concentrate on grabbing the sai with the water. I let the water slip around it and then freeze it but only around the sai. Then I bring the water back to me. 'It worked!' I say and run to Zuko and give him a hug. 'How do you come up with that?' he asks as he hugs me back. 'I don't know I just taught what would I do if I can't reach them or anything else beyond my reach' I say and kiss his cheek. 'Shall we look for some breakfast?' I ask him as he lets go of me. 'Great idea' he said and we walk back.

We both say nothing about what happened tonight and I'm still processing it in my mind. I slept with the person who is trying to capture my friend. The son of the Fire Lord, the grandson of the man that started this war. And the craziest thing about it was that I didn't mind, I didn't even regret it in the slightest.

I know that when I see my friends again I can't tell them any of this. Katara won't talk to me again, Sokka would say he was right about me being really Fire Nation and Aang, I don't know what he would do. Sometimes he's unpredictable. He was fine with my father being Fire Nation but if he was okay with this, I have no idea. I won't tell anyone about it. Just as I did with my waterbending. This is a secret I have to keep safe so I don't lose the people around me.

We went to find Iroh after we bought breakfast. When we were done eating we decided to hit the road again.

We traveled the whole day and when it began to get dark we found shelter inside a tree. I catched our food and when we were done eating we went to sleep. Zuko at his usual spot, behind me and I turned away from the fire.

The next morning Zuko isn't there and Iroh doesn't know either. I went to practice again and felt Zuko approaching so I went back to see him come back with a lot of food. I knew something isn't right but I don't say anything about it. I wasn't in the mood to have a fight but was I ever?

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