Wanting to be loved (Zuko)

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Because we traveled for a long time Sokka made some changes in his plans and we can have a day off. Finally a day were nothing happens and we can just relax. We found a secluded hot spring were we can be ourselves, especially Aang. I love to be surrounded by so much water, it's been too long.

Because of this special occasion I even decided not to train today and just relax. Toph is complaining that Aang should cover up because of his tattoos but no one can see us here so it's fine.

I'm just floating around in the water when I suddenly feel the presence of Zuko, but that can't be! Wait relax, take a deep breath. I relax a little and focus on the feeling. Then I see something that looks like a vision of him in the water. I guess that means he is close to a lot of water just like I am.

I take another deep breath and shake of the feeling and start floating again. I thought I would never see his face again not even with some kind of vision. Because I saw him I begin to wonder how Iroh is doing. I haven't seen him since he helped us escape from the Fire Nation. He is probably in prison for mutiny.

I try to concentrate on him and try to see him but it doesn't work. I think he has no water close to him and I sigh in disappointment. I wish there was a way for me to help him because they caught him while he helped us escape.

I get out of the water and walked over to  Appa. I see Sokka look at my scars but I ignore him and lie down. ''I never got to say that I'm sorry'' Sokka says softly.

''You're sorry about what?'' I ask confused. ''For your burns'' he says. ''It's not your fault. You didn't burn me. Zhao did.'' I say and look at him. ''Yeah but I didn't take revenge for you'' he exclaims.

''No you didn't. But I did it myself and he got what he deserved and he won't do something like this to someone ever again'' I say and look away. I feel him stare at my face with an open mouth. ''You mean you.... You... you know like...'' he tries to say ''You mean that I killed him? Yes I did. I drowned him. It was the first time I used my waterbendingin the open'' I tell him.

''But don't you feel bad about it?'' he asks indisbelief. ''No I don't and I don't know if I have to. He was a terrible and horrible man and it was the moment and the emotions running through me that I did what I did and even to this day I don't regret making that choice.'' I explain.

''But you killed a man, you killed a human being'' he says, still in disbelief that I'm so calm about it. ''I know what it looks like, but if you are wounded like that and the adrenaline is rushing through your veins it's hard to keep a calm mind and analyze what your about to do. I knew that if I let him go hewould come after me just like the first time I saw him'' I say and look down thinking about that time.

The first time Zuko saved my life by winning my freedom. ''What do you mean?'' Sokka asks. ''When Zuko captured me the first time he had to stop and repair the ship. They searched the ship and found me and Zhao found me interesting or something like that and he said he wanted me. He challenged Zuko for an Agni Kai for another reason but said that if Zuko lost he would get me. Luckily Zuko won and in the process he won my freedom'' I tellhim the story.

''Your freedom? But he had you as a prisoner?!'' he shouts. ''Yeah I know but could you imagine what my life would have been if Zuko had lost and I was taken by Zhao? I don't know if I would be alive right now. Zuko held me but being with him was the only way I was able to find you guys again and regain my real freedom'' I explain and I see him relax because he understands what I mean.

''I think I should thank Zuko the next time I see him for winning and you being here with us.'' He says and I look surprised at him because I didn't expect to hear Sokka say he has to thank Zuko.

''Maybe you can do that. But I wonder when the next time will be that we see him and in what kind of situation'' I say and look at Sokka. He knows what I mean. The next time we will see Zuko there will be no time to say thank you, because we will be fighting.

''It was nice talking to you Sokka, we haven't had a conversation like this for along time'' I say honestly to him. ''I think we never had a conversation likethis Miku, because the way I look at you know has changed so much. Sometimes I feel like I don't know you, or the real you'' he whispers.

''I know you do, but we can change that if you like. We can become friends again if we both want it'' I say with a smile. 'I would like that. I think I can learn a lot from you' he tells me honestly and I stare at him.

''You've changed to Sokka. You're more mature'' I say and give him a hug.     

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