A Million Miles And I'm Now Here

12.30.15

Well I slept over T'Yanna's house and it was chill. Now we're going back to my place.  It's all cool and I'm thinking of Jerome while being in the car. He gives me butterflies unless I'm upset. He knows this trick to make me fall in love with him and its like oh my lord it melts my heart. He has the most beautiful pairs of blue eyes so he'll look in the camera so you actually see all of his eyes and I don't know but it drives me crazy. It drives me insane and I'll hide my face because it makes me smile so much and may blush a little. I have no idea what I did to be falling in love with an amazing guy such as him. His imperfections found my way in my little heart and yet he still makes my heart beat for this lovely guy. I've never seem such a pretty smile on someone's face but his. He's gotten me thinking about him it's not even a joke. He makes me feel like one of a kind but in reality I'm any old girl a plain Jane who is so sheltered. He's the priceless gem that someone threw way as if it was just a plain rock. I found something worth fighting for and thats him. Think I'm crazy but I can't bear to lose him. You know sometimes I wish how he thought about me while I rant about him everyday but guys will be guys so whatever. To know how they feel sad, happy, etc... it would be nice to know. Sometimes like now he is drawing and I catch myself looking at him as a daze. I get lost at looking at him because he's a gift that I didn't deserve. I'm just lucky just be loved by him is the thing. Ugh why do I love the boy so fucking much! He drives me insane and I can't believe the effects he has on me its.