A Million Miles And I'm Now Here

5.1.16

I feel alone all the time. I feel the emptiness with in my heart. It hurts, everyday. I wish my mother would realize how much pain runs within me. I say " I'm okay" to everyone but I scream for help. I feel voiceless everyday, I feel voiceless everywhere I go. It feels like the pressure around my body is decomposing into my body waiting for my internal organs to come right out of my body. I also feel as if there was a person choking me everywhere I go, suffocating within my own home. I should feel safe in my own home but I don't. I feel attacked by my own mind. It feels as if I shoved into a closet and every weapon was used to hurt me but as if I was immoral. That constant pain everywhere even when I do something I like. That's how I feel and how I'm always going to feel.