A Million Miles And I'm Now Here

New Years

I did stay up for new years its was like any other year anyway. TY'anna left this morning and it was cool. Mom, oh my lord she loves to just talk shit about me all the time like it pisses me off. How lazy I am and how I do nothing but sit around. I am a teenager, she's always expecting me to grow up way to quick. Ever since I was a little girl everyone would ask me why I'm growing up so fast. I always said I don't know. In reality I did, It felt like I didn't have a choice. My mother was always at work and I was dragged there with her. I couldn't stay home and play with my toys like the other kids. I was always working from the start. I wish I could be a kid, I wouldn't have to worry about a thing. I could be stressless I wouldn't have to worry about homework as much as I do now. 

My mother came back from going to the mall, I'm guessing. Victoria Secret and whatever bags so yea for once she got me food and Kyle got a new games one was apparently for my Will U and the other was for his Xbox that he got from my mother. It's a pretty good game called Xenoblade chronicles I like the set up of it and whatever. There something bothering me sadly... I have no idea what it is. I really just wonder what it is. Why does little things set my mood off? Why I always want to cry so much? Is it because I have too much free time or is it me cutting myself from everyone else? Well I wish I had the answer to it. I hate that I feel so alone to the point music isn't going through to me. Whatever I hope I can sleep thing off.