A Million Miles And I'm Now Here

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Upset.
That's how I honestly feel. I want to cry and scream like nothing matters in the world. I feel hurt its like everyone is too blind to even see it. I want to get things off my chest, I guess that won't happen in a while. I hate that I care so much about a group of people. I hate that I care to much to the point where I get break outs... Where I cry and cry and cry. I had one last night... I've been having them more often than before it's a killer. My body when I don't feel good I feel a cold sensation well when I have my break outs my whole body feels like I've been laying in the snow for hours. I want to cry in the middle of English. I want to flat out and cry. No one message me if I'm okay or just asked. I want to go home. I want to cry but nothing runs down my face. I'm shaking and that's all I'm doing just SHAKING. I can't doing anything but shake.
The only thing that I can focus is this one song "Her last words" by Courtney Parker. The only thing that's keeping me sane I'd probably be gone a long time ago.