A Million Miles And I'm Now Here

2.25.16

Is it okay? To just have one of those off days. Where everything is crashing. I feel like drowning in my tears. All I've been listening is sleeping with sirens since I can't be in a room with silence. Can I go home? But where is that? What is love anymore... This thing to make us blind? Or just to reproduce and have the world to cycle. I want someone to just hug me. I want someone to tell me it's okay. But I'm the person who does that... Tells everyone it's okay that it gets better that we well be better we just need to heal. Sometimes I don't wanna live life. Sometimes I don't wanna get out of bed because I don't wanna deal with people. I guess it gets worse sometimes...

Is it okay to just run? I want to hug someone so much. I want to smile I wanna lift my head and have someone kiss my forehead, to rub my back. I want to just cry but I keep holding everything in. I keep wanting to explode I want to fall apart. It's like someone using a glue stick and sticking me back together.