A Million Miles And I'm Now Here

6.7.16

Today, a year ago I was the happiest girl alive. For 4 solid months, my life forever changed. I met a boy fell in love with this personality. I knew and found out what he was like. I put so much time in effort in him I implanted my happiness in him. Every moment I was with him I could breath. Every single time I kissed him fireworks went off with in me. I was crazy for this one person I was addicted. People are addicted to drugs and such. He was my addiction he was the guy I couldn't get enough of and 8 months later I lay here on my bed thinking about him. All the memories I had with him, all the times he has put a stupid smile on my face. Yeah him, it sickens me that I think of him that way. You wiped my sadness my loneliness away from me. How stupid you must think of me. How pathetic I am to mope around on about him but sometimes the person you loved so much caused you so much pain. He left me a week before homecoming and I couldn't stop crying about him for 2 weeks until it didn't hurt as much I still think a good portion of me still goes to him but it's fading slowly. I hate how much I know him I hate how much he kills me but if you love someone so much it will shoot you back in the ass again.