My Ghost Girlfriend

MGG 17

This is crazy

Two days...

Two fucking days!

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!

I've never cursed this bad in my entire life. Ngayon lang! And it's all because of-- damn! Fucking shit! Why am I being delirious about something whom God knows why am I even thinking?! Argh. What the fuck is wrong with me?!

Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko at naalala ang nangyari dalawang araw nang nakakaraan.

After that ki--damn! Why did I even kiss her?! Anong pumasok sa utak ko't hinalikan ko siya?! Is it because of her eyes? The way her dark hair slipped over her bare shoulder? Or is it because of her voice that hurts as it left her lips the words I can't even comprehend? I don't know.

I placed my hand against my chest. I felt something stirred up.

All I remember that moment I saw her is the urge to reach my arms around her waist, hold her tight like I never want to let go, and the need to make her stay. To stay with me.

But then she disappeared. She vanished without a trace, leaving me dumbfounded with nothing but a goddamn bottle of holy water in my hand.

"Good--"

Nagtagis ang bagang ko at walang seremonyang binato ang unang nakapa ko sa tabi ko.

"Dustin naman!"

Napamulagat ako at bumungad sakin ang nakangusong mukha ni Dad. He's wearing a corporate tux at kung titignan siya ngayon ng mga empleyado niya, mapagkakamalan lang siyang bata na nakabihis ng ginto. I rolled my eyes. Not my fault.

"What?"

Humaba pa lalo ang nguso niya at binigyan ako ng malungkot na mga mata. "I love you too, son."

I refrained myself from throwing another pillow on his face. "Talk to my hand, Dad."

Tumaas ang gilid ng labi niya at nakangiti nang lumapit sa kama ko. "Nakita mo na bang hinahanap mo?"

I don't know why but I found myself diverting my eyes from him. "Not yet."

"Saan mo ba kasi nawala? Pinahanap ko na sa Lolo mo baka may nakita silang kakaiba sa bahay na naiwan mo. Ano ba kasi yun? Ayaw mo naman kasing sabihin nang natulungan sana kita." Umalog ang kama nang umupo siya sa tabi ko.

"It's nothing."

"It's nothing pero kung makahalughog ka kulang nalang baliktarin mo pati lupang tinitirikan ng bahay. We even stayed for another day dahil ayaw mo pang umalis nang hindi nakikita yang hinahanap mo."

"Psh," I hate to admit it but it's true. Ayokong umalis ng hindi siya nakikita. Ayokong isipin na hindi ko na siya makikita. Fuck.

"The universe won't help you what you ask for with your thoughts, action is what you need the most, son. But then if it's meant for you, it will find a way to come back."

Napatingin ako sa kanya and gave him a weird look. He just slyly smiled then patted my shoulder. "Breakfast's ready."